~*angie's lil reverie*~

Flown Away

Wonder why am i awake at this time - 6.16am? I just came back from the airport to send one of my very best friend - Limin off. She's going US for one year. As the officers took freaking long time to check her bags, all of us didn't have a chance to talk to her before she left. Sigh. Why didn't i try to find time to meet up with her before she left this morning? I guess i can only see her in one year time unless i am able to save enough money to go US after my graduation...

Anyway, Limin has been my best friend since secondary school days when we were still young and innocent girls. We basically shared all our secrets, happiness and even sorrows together all this years. She is the one who goes shopping with me; go swimming with me; clubbing with me (and seeing each other drunk), etc. Basically, we do alot of things together and i'm going to miss her deeply when she is over there. I sincerely wish her all the best in her studies and internship...

Throughout all these years, many of my good friends had gone overseas to study. Are all these partings just part of life? Just like my dear best friend, Wanlin, she's graduating this year and she may not be coming back to Singapore for holidays anymore. How sad. She is one of these friends whom i will never regret making and will love to have for life. She always makes me laugh, cheers me up when i am down and had even helped me to know my crush back in secondary school days. I just hope that our friendship will continue no matter what happens. If i have enough money, i will definitely fly to US to visit her and of cos limin...

I shall end this journal with a nice quote... "True Friends are Never Apart - Maybe in Distance but Never in Heart". How true. So to all my friends who are currently studying or working overseas, you guys are always on my mind no matter how far you are.

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Angeline winks
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What kinds of JOBS do i want?

I'm graduating in 2 mths time and i still have no idea what kind of job would i be happy with. Do i want to be a financial planner? A banker? A teacher? Or a sales person?

I simply have no idea! This has been bugging for quite some time and till now, i still have no idea what i kind of jobs do i want. Sigh. This is bad. I don't wish to step on the wrong path and got to stick with it for a few years. And most importantly, i always think that the first career in your life is the most important one as it will determine the path you will be heading to in future. It's true, isn't it? I really wish that i can find a good job in a good company and just stay there. I don't wish to job-hop all the time as i think it will definitely reflect very badly of you if your resume has TOO MANY job experiences, all with limited time frame.

Well, it may sound pessimistic, but i'm really worried that what if i cant find a job after my graduation? Though my good pal, Shixing always tells me that there will be be alot of jobs around and i don't have to worry abt unemployment, i'm still worried. Am i too paranoid? Maybe, but i just hate the feeling of not being employed. It makes you feel useless and demoralized.

Anyway, back to the main point of this entry, I still think that i desperately need to do some quiz to help me to identify the job that i want...

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Angeline winks
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Sunday, February 13, 2005

I simply LOVE this festive season!!

Yes, as i have mentioned earlier, CNY is simply my favourite festive season man. A great chance to earn extra income, a great chance to eat my favourite chinese new year goodies, a great chance to gamble without feeling any pinch in your pocket and a great chance to let down your hair and really enjoy yourself. I have enjoyed myself so much that i nearly forgot that i still have to finish up my tutorials and fyp next week. But, i have no regrets! Haha.

I had been gambling for the past two days at Jovan's and Alex's house. Though winning money is great, the main point is to have fun with your friends, so even if you lose money, i guess its okie. But of coz, it wont be good if you actually lose QUITE a BIG amount of money. (i mean who like to lose money, right?) Therefore, it's always important to know when to stop gambling to avoid losing all your any pow money. For me, at least i know how to control my losses to a certain extent. As a result, for these two days of intensive gambling, i think i have managed to win $1. Haha.

Jovan had invited alot of our B&F gang to his house and i must say it was a successful gathering. Basically, alot of pple went and most importantly, all those who went were enjoying themselves. I myself had fun taking videos and indulging myself with the steamboat. I was really happy to see so many of them. Though we may be in the same course, we seldom meet up in school as we all are in different classes or sometimes we simply skip the lecture (ops). I really hope that we can have such gathering every year!

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And most importantly, i am so happy that i finally can have class gathering with my amkss friends! I really miss them man. The handsomes and babes who were present at Alex's place included Chen Lye, Baba, Hong Swee, Jing Guo, Peihui, Yuxiu, Limin, Evelyn and of cos ME! (as usual, Bao and Charlie never turned up for this gathering) Anyway, they are pple who i dont meet up regularly yet whenever we meet up, i will always feel comfortable and happy with them. I guess those wonderful times we spent together back in the sec school were simply one of my best period of life. And Chen Lye is still very funny and entertaining just like back in secondary school days! And he is always so lucky! He was the banker and he WON alot of our money man. This guy is simply the lucky guy man. We all had fun gambling and i felt as if we were back in secondary school again. I simply miss those times. I guess i will always remember these friends who i had made when i was still a tu-tu girl...

All in all, really appreciate Jovan and Alex for organizing such fantastic gathering with lots of food and allowing us to dirty their houses. (Maybe next time when i have my own house, you guys can come my place too! Cos i simply love to invite pple to my house to eat and play! ) Lets have such gathering every year! Shall we?

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Angeline winks
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The Happy Friends

Behind (from left to right): Baba, Chen Lye, Yuxiu, Me, Limin, Yinqiu, Peihui, Evelyn, Jing Guo
In Front: Hong Swee, Alex, Weisi
Dont we all look very happy? I hardly can see my EYES!

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Angeline winks
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Thursday, February 10, 2005

Happy Chinese New Year

Happy Chinese New Year to All! Are you guys having a good time doing house visiting and collecting ang pows? I didn't do much of the house visiting (except to the temple and my grandma's house) but i had a good time too.... Eating all the CNY goodies, chit chatting with relatives and watching tv all day long with no tutorials at all!

Day One
Anyway, as usual, for the first day of the CNY, all of us (father's side relatives) went to temple to visit my ah nei's old friends and to pray to my ancestors and the deities. After which, all of them came to my house. I was really happy as i felt good to see all my relatives and most importantly, i think my ah nei was very happy too!

This year, we have a new member in our house and he is none other than MARC YONG (ah seng's son)! He is simply so adorable and being the first GREAT-GRANDSON in our family, all of us love him to the max. All of us fighting to carry him! And of cos, i an no exception too! I simply love this nephew of mine and i cant wait for him to grow up to call me gu-ma. (hm... does it make me very old? But never mind lah! As long as i look young, it doesn't matter what he calls me!) The presence of this new member has simply cheered and "entertained" us for the time he spent in my house. When i see how cute Marc is, i feel like having a baby of my own too...but of cos not at this period... =p

That were all the highlights of my first day of CNY as rest of the day, i was sleeping, watching tv or reading story book...

Day Two
I woke up super early in the morning to go my grandma's (my mother's side) house. Though i got nothing in the afternoon, i felt that its more appropriate for me to go in the morning as a gesture of respect for my beloved grandma. So, i dragged my sis and alan out of bed just to go house visiting with me! heehee... Anyway, i was really happy to see my grandma as it has been quite some time when i last saw her. I simply miss her! But i was quite worried when she told me she couldn't walk properly now and she had to depend on the walker to walk around the house. I guess i should really go visit her more often and not self-proclaiming myself too busy to go...

Anyway, i stayed at her house for awhile then i went yukai's house. After eating some dim sum with his family(his mother gave me a BIG FAT ang pow!!) at PSA, yukai came over to my place while his family went to watch movie. He left my house abt 5 plus after entertaining himself with computer and my chinnies.

So just when i tot i was going to spend rest of the day alone at home (as my sis they all going to watch movie), my auntie called me last minute to pop down her house for the yearly gathering which we used to have (except last yr). I was really excited as i felt so weird without the yearly dinner last yr and i was so happy that we're having it again this year! I bet my grandma will be so happy too! And when i reached, there were indeed alot of pple! It was really great! I got to chat with my cousins like edwin (who is so FIT and is now a personal trainer at California), justin (my favourite cousin ever since i came to ntu), etc. Its really great to see them. As i watched my grandma walking around, i could sense that she was very very happy to see so many of us too. I hope we can have this kind of gathering every year! That will be so COOL!

To me, CNY is not only a time to earn "extra income", instead, its a good period to meet up with family, relatives & friends. Also, its a good period to tell how much you love them (start telling them now!). With that, i want to tell all my family, relatives and friends that i love you guys! *Muack*

Last but not least, Happy Chinese New Year to all! Enjoy rest of the CNY... (there are 13 more days to enjoy...)

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Angeline winks
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Wednesday, February 09, 2005

Eve of Chinese New Year

Yeah, today is officially the eve of Chinese New Year aka chu xi ye! Today is the day where all of us would be having reunion dinner with our beloved family. My family had our reunion LUNCH (yes, you didn't read it wrongly, my family ate reunion LUNCH together and not reunion dinner) in the afternoon. Seriously speaking, i really treasure this reunion lunch as i think my family only eat together like 2 or 3 times a year only. This makes me realize that as we grow older, it is even harder for a family to eat together and the only chance which we can eat together will be either during CNY or some big festival (like my grandma's birthday). This year, my brother had gone overseas to celebrate CNY and so there is only 5 of us. Though i always complain abt him, i think i kinda miss him now... Cos its kinda quiet without him around! Haha.Anyway, i am SO LOOKING FORWARD to CNY! I can eat all i want, play all i want and sleep all i want! This is the life i want!

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Angeline winks
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"When Mr Right Comes at the Wrong Time"

This is simply a very interesting article by Janice Wong which i had read from the Straits Times (Jan 31, 2005). Here it goes...

Only some lucky people marry the loves of their lives. The rest marry the most suitable person who comes along when they are ready to settle down.

A friend in his 20s came to this conclusion after confiding in me that he had recently met a woman who is more attractive than his wife, and so occupies his thoughts more often than his wife does.

'If only I had met her before I got married,' he said wistfully.

But I think even if the love of one's life appears when one is single, one may not be in the right frame of mind to recognise him or her as such.

And then love passes by.

Life is littered with near misses and lost opportunities.

I attended my ex-boyfriend's wedding last month, which triggered many memories.

We met five years ago when I was 23 and he 31.

It was love at first sight.

He had an established career, was down-to-earth and steadfastly religious.

I was then working as an air stewardess and my head was - literally and metaphorically - in the clouds.

I was also - well, let's put it this way - not religious.

Despite our differences, we were soul mates.

We had the same quirky sense of humour and shared long, intense overnight conversations.

But human nature is perverse.

When someone is excessively nice to us, we start taking things for granted, instead of appreciating them even more.

My ex sent me to the airport, fixed my PC, reminded me to take health supplements - and go to church.

He had everything I could want in a husband - except that I was not looking for one.

A boyfriend was all I could cope with then.I loved fast cars, danced wildly at Zouk and took off on shopping holidays at a whim.

My life revolved around I, me and myself.In the six months that we were together, he popped the question several times and talked ad nauseam about having children. He wanted us to enrol for a Christian marriage preparation course.

Yes, I did often fantasize about a Vera Wang wedding gown, but I was at that stage of my life when I was more interested in Guess than Baby Guess.

And where - dare I admit it? - I still wanted to meet other men.

So I was a 23-year-old with the emotional maturity of a 13-year-old. Responsibility? Wasn't that for adults?

In short, I met Mr Right at the wrong time.

The more he talked about marriage and religion, the more I felt pressured and the more pressured I felt, the more irritable I became.

I was too impatient to compromise. Every trivial matter blew up as a big deal. My mood obliterated the good in our relationship and reached a point where I just wanted out.

He was heartbroken; I was sad but relieved. He still called me regularly, beseeching me to change my mind.

The calls stopped finally after a year. Now and then, we say 'Hi' via e-mail.

I had a few painful relationships after that. Served me right, as those rude wake-up calls were necessary for me to realize the meaninglessness of my hedonistic high life.

I missed the tenderness of my ex and began having second thoughts.

Perhaps I also felt more urgency to find someone marriageable before my biological clock reached zero hour. It dawned on me that I am not a pixie like Peter Pan who can flit around forever. One day, I'd wake up sick and alone when my fair weather friends flit away.

But I was too proud and too unsure of my ex's reaction to call him until last year.

The first thing he told me excitedly was that he had found The One. My heart tumbled to my feet. So, that's Fate.

If only I could turn back time. If only I had met him later. If only... what feeble words.

These days, I am more circumspect. I have come to terms with my loss. There is nothing I can do about timing, but I can do everything about my choices.

Sometimes, when the nights get lonely, I toy with the idea of marrying a platonic friend of mine, who often assures me earnestly that, if the worst comes to the worst, he'd be willing to marry me.

But I always dismiss that. I have already made one mistake. I should not make another by settling for second best merely for the sake of getting hitched - only to regret it soon after, as the guy who confided in me did.

Hopefully, the best is not over but yet to be.

Nice article, isn't it? I like this sentence the most "SOMETIMES, timing rather than love decides who we end up being with - or without". Which is why i believe in fate so much as i think fate is simply the determining factor to decide who you will end up with. I glad that i have found Yukai and though it may be too early for me to say, but I hope i will be able to get married to the one i love after all.

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Angeline winks
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Sunday, February 06, 2005

All Work and no Play makes Angie a Dull Girl

Yes, i must say i am a super dull girl. If you ever ask me what "exciting" or fun thing i had done for the past few days during this recess, i can only give you a blank look. Cos all i did was fyp, pjt discussion, studying for quiz, attending interviews and giving tuition. And the only fun thing i did was singing ktv alone in k-box for free. What happened to my social life? It's totally screwed up man.

Is it due to my bad management of time that costs me to lose my social life? I don't know. But it just seems that everyday is a busy day for me. I flick through my organizer and there is bound to be important stuff to do everyday. This is really a sad life. Cos i tot final sem is supposed to be the SLACKEST sem? Apparently, this is not the case.My best pjtmate, Adrian once wrote this as his msn nick - "Mango not studying, not going out with anyone, not doing pjt. Then what am i busy with?" This is truly reflective of how i feel too. I basically not studying, not going out with anyone, not doing pjt, not sleeping enough, not watching tv and not even exercising. So what am i busy with? I really have no idea too. I wish i can take leave from NTU and go on holidays now.

So, my dear dean, is it possible to grant me one week of leave? PLEASEeeeeeee?

[ Anyway, i have gotten my first offer letter today. =p But, i am still having doubts of the career i want so i guess i still need to consider before i give them an answer next week ]

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Angeline winks
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Thursday, February 03, 2005

I'm the Right Person for your company!

As a typical final year undergraduate, I have been going many career fairs or talks held in school. Though i guess by going all these career fairs or talks, it doesn't really help me to get a job. At least, to a certain extent, it will help to understand wat i want and what kind of pple they are looking for...

After the career fair i went today, i came to a conclusion - All companies all looking for the same kind of pple with these criteria:

1) Must be people-orientated. (Ahey, i'm definitely people-orientated! I love to meet and talk to different kinds of pple and I love to make pple happy.)
2) Must be an entrepreneur (I am always thinking of different business ideas (which ranges from water restaurant to boutique) so i guess this does show that i do have entrepreneurial spirit. =p )
3) Must be committed and hardworking (I'm very sure that i am very hardworking and committed to anything i do. If you don't believe, ask anyone who has worked with me and I'm quite sure they will come to the same consensus that i am REALLY hardworking and committed)
4) Good academic results (hmm.... it depends how you define "good" academic results...)

Viewing from the above points, it seems like i am simply the RIGHT person for the JOb! haha... Don't you agree? But why is it that i have not been invited for any interviews or wat? hmm... Something must be very wrong isn't it? Anyway, i guess I really need to think of something to impress the companies so that they will actually recruit me!! Argh! I simply need a job...I need a job, but i simply have no clear idea wat kind of jobs i am really interested. Perhaps i should spend sometime thinking wat do i really want to do when i graduate. Or maybe i should just be tai-tai? Haha.

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Angeline winks
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