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Tuesday, November 28, 2017

Follow up review

I was so bored at home that I was so looking forward to my gynae visit on Monday. Haha. Before the visit, we also had breakfast at Toast Box. It's our first date since 10 November 2017. Haha. 

We went to see Dr Lim for follow up review. She examined my wound and told me that I was recovering well. And that would be a last review one month later. 

On Sunday, I suddenly experienced a heavy blood flow (worse than menses) while waiting for my massage. I rushed to the toilet immediately and there was a big blood clot. It's damn scary. But Aunty Hamidah told me that this is good as we are supposed to expel all these blood clots and air. Anyway, the good thing was, after this incident, I stopped bleeding. Anyway, I asked Dr Lim what's this but she cannot comment unless we sent the blood clot for testing. But seriously, who would keep the blood clot? Anyway, the key thing is, as long as I am no longer bleeding so much, I am okay. 

Oh ya, Dr Lim also shared with us on birth control. We were like quite stunned by this topic. She's a gynae so shouldn't she encourage us to have more babies? Haha. Maybe, it's a quiet morning so she just wanna share more information with us. Haha. 


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Angeline winks
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Sunday, November 26, 2017

Post natal depression

To be frank, I get very emotional easily after giving birth. At times, I just feel like crying.. for no reason. So, I can understand post natal depression can happen to any mummy if there is no strong support from family and friends.

As first time mum, you worry about not being able to take care of your baby. You also worry when your baby cannot latch properly. And when your baby doesn't latch properly, you get sore and swollen nipples which hurt like hell. (I have to get breast shields and apply nipple cream to recover. It was so painful that I wish I can be naked at times. Haha. But, of course, I can't be naked unless I wanna be famous for the wrong reasons.) 

You worry about not having enough breast milk for your baby, Initially, I only have pathetic 10ml (from both breasts?!!!) of milk when my baby needs 70ml. And this is very depressing when you wake up in the middle of the night to pump and this is all you get. Luckily, I have many encouraging friends who ask me not to give up. True enough, my milk supply starts to get better from day 6 onwards. I remember I was so happy to get 50ml after pumping for 15 mins. Then, things start to get better. After 2 weeks, I have about 200ml. So, to all those first time mummies, don't get disheartened when your supply is low for the first few days. You must persevere. For this, I must thank Jianhui also. He has been very encouraging whenever I send him photos of my supply. And when you start to have your breastmilk, you have another problem. Bloated and full breasts make you uncomfortable. You have to constantly massage your breasts and pump milk regularly if not you will suffer. Sometimes, it's so painful that you can't even rest.

On top of all these worries, you have a wound to heal and you won't be too happy to see your flabby (and super ugly) tummy. The pregnancy line, linea nigra just doesnt disappear and I think this will take months to disappear. Sigh. And yes, you are still quite heavy. I only lose 6kg after giving birth when I have gained a total of 16kg. Also, you are bleeding non-stop. And wearing pad makes you feel uncomfortable all day long since you are wearing it for long hours and for weeks. And you really feel weak. For the first week, my hands would be swollen or crampy whenever I wake up from sleep. It's scary as I never feel that weak and vulnerable. And you feel sweaty and dirty coz you are constantly perspiring and yet you cannot bathe. For me, I look forward to my daily shower with herbs. It makes me feel alive. And after your jamu massage, you got to endure the binding.

Other than all these, you are confined for 28 days. You cannot go out. It's quite hard to stay sane. For me, I keep myself entertained by shopping online (It's such a joy to be at home to receive parcels!), playing with phone, taking care of baby, pumping milk and rest. Anyway, 2 more weeks to go for me! I am looking forward to end of confinement, but at the same time, this will mean I have survive without my confinement lady.

All I can say is, it's very important to take it easy and don't be too harsh on yourself. I know it's not easy to be a mummy,  but together with Jianhui, I am sure we will survive. Also, to all husbands out there, please pamper your wifey and make her feel good after she has given birth. She will appreciate it and this will make your relationship stronger. 

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Angeline winks
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Saturday, November 25, 2017

Lexuan is 2 weeks old

Can you believe it? Lexuan is 2 weeks old! =p She weighs about 3.7kg now. She is feeding well and pooping a lot. Sometimes you help her to change diapers after she has pooped, then she pooped again while changing diapers. Last night, while I was changing her diapers, she peed... ''>_< So you can imagine the mess. Her bed is wet, her romper is wet and she is pissed. Nightmare.

As for mummy, I guess I am recovering well. I can feel that my energy is almost back. I have been eating a lot because my confinement lady always says must eat a lot to have breastmilk. So, I eat a lot. I guess at least I will eat so much only during this 28 days. (Update: I can pump about 160ml to 200ml of milk now.) Currently, I weigh 53.7kg. Still quite a long way to my pre-pregnancy weight. I guess I shall take it easy as I don't think I can start running for at least 2 months. Now, what matters is to get my health back. 

2 more weeks to end of confinement. Seriously, I can't wait to go out! I want to see the Christmas lighting and Christmas trees!

But then again, after 2 weeks, it will be life without confinement lady. This will also mean I will be taking care of baby myself. Hmm... More sleepless nights...

Nevertheless, I believe things will get better. =p

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Angeline winks
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Tuesday, November 21, 2017

Our first adventure with Lexuan

We brought Lexuan for a little adventure out to Mount Elizabeth Novena today! She is due to meet PD, Dr Loh for a one week follow up visit.

In the morning, papa Jianhui is busy preparing for the stuff to bring out. The diapers, milk powder, hot water, water, etc. I am thankful to have such a calm hubby who is always so steady. If I were to do this alone, I probably will be a gan jiong spider. 


It was a rainy day today. We called cab to pick us up at Blk 617 and thankfully it is off peak, so it was quite easy to get a cab. Lexuan was sleeping throughout the trip in papa's arms. Good girl!

When we reached Dr Loh's clinic, we realized his clinic is just opposite Dr Lim's clinic. Hmm.. So, is Dr Loh recommended by Dr Lim? Jianhui settled the registration while I brought Lexuan for the measurement. I had to take off all her clothes to measure her weight. As expected, Lexuan was crying like mad as I took off her clothes, mittens, booties, etc. The nurse then calmly measured her length and weight. She weighs 3.46kg now and is 50cm. =p


Dr Loh told us Lexuan looks good, and has no jaundice. Yeah! Seems like our confinement lady has taken very good care of Lexuan. 

Surprisingly, after seeing Dr Loh, Lexuan was very quiet and slept her way back home.

So, we made it back home safely! Haha.



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Angeline winks
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Monday, November 20, 2017

Post natal Massage

I was kinda looking forward to my post natal massage as I thought this massage will be a pampering session for the mummy, to relive my backache and get rid of the gas in my stomach.

And so I had my first post natal massage today with Aunty Hamidah. Aunty Hamidah told me that my womb and organs are okay, except that there is air inside my stomach. It was very relaxing for me until I got to bind my stomach. And I got to bind till tomorrow morning?!! She also used plastic wrap to wrap my arms and butt.

So, I guess I got to endure to have a flat tummy and firm butt!

There is a price to pay to be pretty.

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Angeline winks
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Saturday, November 18, 2017

Lexuan is one week old

Time flies! Our dear Lexuan is one week old today! 

One week ago on this very day, I was still lying on the bed, waiting for my cervix to dilate. And now, with a blink of eyes, Lexuan is one week old. 

We are so thankful to have such a good confinement lady that Lexuan is well taken care of and I am so well-fed. =p Jianhui has been very busy buying food for us to ensure that I am well fed. And with me doing confinement, he has to be the one running errands.

I am feeling much better now and most importantly, I have more milk now. I can pump about 100ml per session and I will pump every 4 hours. I will continue to work harder. Anyway, this is my KPI for now. haha. Lexuan drinks about 70ml each time and she needs to drink every 2 hours, so you do that Maths and will know that I need to work harder. Haha. 

Perseverance is the key to success! Jia you, Angie!


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Wednesday, November 15, 2017

Post-delivery

After going through the labour process myself, I realized a lot of my mummy friends did not share the details of the labour process. Probably they might have forgotten about it or they choose not to remember the details. Haha. 

Anyway, after the delivery, you have to handle pain from everywhere. From backache,shoulder ache to aching hands (I don't know why but my hands ache. Is it due to carrying of baby for too long?) to your wound below. You just feel like shit from head to toes, seriously. And you thought you will not look so pregnant since you had just given birth, I still look 5 months pregnant with swollen abdomen. My weight has dropped from 61kg to 55kg though. Anyway, I don't know is it just me or what, I feel super thirsty ever since I have discharged. It's quite bad to the extent that I will feel dehydrated.

After the nurse removed the catheter the next morning, you don't really have any feeling to pee. It's kinda scary. So, I tried to drink as much water as possible and was so looking forward to my first pee. After 3hours, I finally managed to pee but it is less than 200ml. According to nurse, the target is 200ml. Luckily, I managed to "pass" for my 2nd pee. Haha. 

As for passing motion, it's almost impossible to pass motion! First of all, my stomach is empty and I didn't dare to exert force so as not to break the stitches on my wound. Dr Lim came to examine me on Monday and reassured me that I would be able to pass motion soon. So, I was able to discharge on Monday. And Lexuan also passed the jaundice test so she could go home with us! 

So, we went home together by cab. So, this is the beginning of our parenthood!

Meanwhile, I need to rest rest rest, pump pump pump (milk) and eat eat eat. 


Wishing myself a speedy recovery so that I can come back stronger!

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Angeline winks
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Welcome to the family!

Sometimes in life, it’s really amazing how things happen. Our baby girl is due on 16 November 2017 so she will come out anytime from now till 16 November 2017 if not we will induce labour on 17 November 2017. Maybe it’s maternal and paternal instincts. On Friday, I started to wonder how does contractions feel like and what are the things I should look out for in case I experience labour contractions. So I started to google for more information and even consulted my sister. Even Jianhui started to pack his bag to get ready to go hospital anytime once we were home from dinner. 

I started to feel minor contractions more often since 7pm. It comes and goes and I guess that could be Braxton Hicks contractions. I could still walk and do normal things as per normal. However,
just when we were going to bed, I told Jianhui I started to feel stronger contractions and it kept on coming. We googled online about this 5-1-1 contractions rule (contractions come every 5 minutes, each lasting for a minute and this goes on for an hour). We tried timing the frequency of the contractions and the contractions do come at every 5 minutes. The pain is bearable just like menses cramps which I think is okay. Jianhui told me I should check if I am bleeding. True enough, when I went to toilet, I was shocked to see blood like menses! We called Dr Lim immediately and she suggested that we should go hospital immediately. 

So I went to have long long shower (as I won’t know when I can wash my hair with nice smelling shampoo), blow dried my hair and we slowly get ready to go hospital. We could get a cab quite easily and it was a smooth journey to Mount E Novena. 

We reached Mount E Novena’s A&E about 0045. I could still walk but they pushed me to the delivery ward via wheelchair. Immediately, they started to use CTG to measure baby’s heart beat and contractions. At this moment, the contractions are irregular and not that high. Dr Lim came about 1am to examine and my cervix is only at tip of finger, meaning my cervix haven dilate and still need to thin out a bit. She told us to take rest and she would examine me again around 8am before she goes to her clinic. 

I couldn’t really rest as the contractions started to come more often but irregular. Sometimes it could hit as high as above 120 which will send sharp pain from my back to stomach. And my bleeding continued. It seems like my bleeding is not due to mucus plug but fetal distress. I kept on going toilet and walked around to feel better. Meanwhile, Jianhui rested on the sofa bed. He must be so tired as he had a busy week at work and yet we didn’t sleep at all to check in here. 

In the end, I didn’t sleep much and it’s morning. We were really hungry so Jianhui went to buy my favourite peanut waffles for me. I didn’t expect this to be my last meal for the day. Lucky I ate the peanut waffles as the hospital breakfast wasn’t nice at all. The only edible thing was the bun which tasted like SQ bun. 

After suffering so much in pain, I really feel like crying when Dr Lim came to examine me at 8am and my cervix only dilated 1cm. And my cervix needs to dilated to 10cm to be considered as fully dilated! My god!

Dr Lim came to examine me again at 1pm after her clinic has closed. And I was told that I was only 2cm dilated. After enduring the pain for so long without any pain killer, I think I will die of exhaustion if this goes on. After discussing with Dr Lim, I told her I will take epidural. 

The moment I had confirmed my decision, nurses came and insert some tube to clear bowels. The effect was so fast that I was running to the toilet as I could feel the shit coming out! They also inserted a catheter to drain my bladder so that I will no longer need to get out of bed to pee. Seriously, the amazing thing about this tube is the bag got collect pee but I don’t feel a thing. 

Thereafter, Dr Wendy Teoh came over to administer epidural for me. They gave me a consent form to read and it was so scary, talking about the side effects, etc. Jianhui was also chased out of the room. True enough, the whole process was so scary! I was supposed to cringe forward, back facing Dr Wendy Teoh. Then she did something to my spinal cord. And instantly I could feel electric shock all over my body. Then the most amazing thing is, I stop feel any contractions pain now! I do still feel a bit of tightening near breasts area. But the side effect is, I started to feel itchiness on my body especially my breasts area. 

About 1350, Syntocinon infusion commerced after taking epidural. This contains oxytocin, which is a naturally-occuring hormone. The oxytocin will cause the muscle of the uterus to contract during labour so that the baby can be pushed out easily. 

With the epidural, I feel much better and just rested on bed to prepare for the push later on. 

At 1600, Dr Lim came over again and know what? My cervix is dilated to 2.5cm only! What? Dr Lim recommended to burst my water bag and up the Syntocinon infusion to increase the contraction and to make it more regular. True enough, Jianhui told me my contractions become strong and more regular strong contractions! 

I was really hungry by now so i drank about 6 mouthful of milo. Bad decision. I started to vomit milo and yellow fluid. Side effect of epidural. That’s why they don’t allow you to take any food after taking epidural. 

The wait continued. Jianhui and I find it unbelievable that our baby girl still don’t want to come out. We also started to wonder maybe she decided to come out on 12.11.17 instead. 

At 1810, I started to have fever of 38 degree Celsius. As I have allergy to panadol and aspirin, they can only use cold compress on me. It’s like 一波未平一波又起

Luckily, when Dr Lim came at 1835, my cervix finally dilated to 6cm. Yeah! Finally got some progress! 

Just when we were wondering maybe our baby girl decided to come out on 12 November 2017 instead, the nurse started to buzz around 8pm. A senior nurse came over and it seemed like my cervix was fully dilated. She and other nurse started to prepare me to do the pushing. When the contraction comes, they will ask me to give a push. Seriously with epidural, you don’t know how to push hard. You tempt to give face expression only. 

After a few rounds, they told me they saw the baby’s hair and they called Dr Lim to come down. We did a couple of pushing and baby is not out yet. In the end, we did the final pushing and with the help of the vacuum, Lexuan is born on 11 November 2017. 

Immediately, they put Lexuan on me and she is full of shit. Haha. Aiyo, this girl is like her mummy, wanna come out Liao still shit. 

As I look at her, the feeling is really amazing. She is my daughter. I really feel like crying when I see her as we have been waiting for so long to have her. And now, she has come to this world. 

Both Jianhui and I are parents to this beautiful angel in my arms. 
I really feel very very shag after this whole 20hours process. And I feel so weak. I was basically shivering in cold as Dr Lim was doing stitches. Nurse didn’t really want to cover me as I was having fever, but i was literally shivering in cold. 

The PD, Dr Mark Loh came to examine Lexuan. She weighs 3.12kg, quite a big baby I would think for my size. Most importantly, she is healthy. 

Dr Lim finished the stitching and know what? I started to vomit non stop again. So Dr Lim gave me medicine to stop the nausea and I was feeling super uncomfortable with the itchy breasts so I asked for medicine too. Now that baby is out, I can take the medicine I think haha. 

We had to stay in the delivery room for a while. Finally, around late 10pm, somebody finally came to clean me up. And I feel much better instantly. Then they pushed us to ward 902. Jianhui went to register some stuff for baby and do the receipts claims at business Centre. While waiting for him, i fell asleep. When I woke up, i was feeling really hungry, so I ate crackers and milo. Feeling very thirsty and tired. 

Basically, I feel like shit. I can’t bathe (and you wouldn’t want to bathe with your wound down there). The needles on my left hand (for the drip and epidural) makes me very uncomfortable and you feel weak from head to toe. You experience backache. You feel hungry but there’s nothing to eat. After my own experience of giving birth, I think it is not a good idea to visit the mummy and baby in hospital. As the mummy needs rest and she is probably also in her cui state that she doesn’t really wanna see anybody. Haha. 

Just when you wanted to have a really good sleep, you will need to wake up every 2-3hours for breastfeeding. Even Jianhui was feeling so tired as he didn’t rest well also. 

This must be my most shag day ever. Going through up and downs for the whole 20 hours. But it’s all worth it as we welcome our baby girl to our life. 

Lexuan, welcome to Chong family! 

* I am very lucky to have such a good husband who has been giving me very strong support for the whole pregnancy to delivery. He's simply the best and I am sure he will be a good papa too. Also, I am thankful for the support and love from my family and friends who have been feeding me with food and gifts. Lastly, I would like to express great appreciation to Dr Charles Lim, Dr Lim May Li and all the staff in Mount Elizabeth Novena helping in every other way to ensure Lexuan is delivered safely. The great experience in Mount Elizabeth Novena has helped me to lessen my pain by making my stay a comfortable one.

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Angeline winks
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