~*angie's lil reverie*~

Tomorrow will be a better day

I feel like I am the saddest person on earth.

My wound hurts like hell and it's hindering me from doing a lot of things freely. I can't walk properly, can't sleep properly and can't even eat well. Everything just seems to go wrong.

My birthday is coming, but I doubt I can truly enjoy my birthday given that I am in such a pathetic state. Why must all the things go wrong at this time?

What's happening?

Hm......

Nevertheless, I still hold the faith that tomorrow will be a better day!

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Angeline winks
at |12:21 AM| 5 comments

Monday, September 26, 2005

Mood Analysis Test

Utmost in your mind is success. You are constantly seeking stimulation and a life full of experience. You are trying to 'grow' and above all you need to develop freely and to shake off the shackles of self-doubt. You are an enthusiastic individual, full of life with the desire to live intensely. You like contact with others and are enthusiastic by nature. You are receptive to anything new, modern or intriguing. Your interests are many and you are likely to expand your fields of activities. You are optimistic about the future and you deserve every success because deep down you are a 'winner'.

You are a very warm and emotional individual but unfortunately in the past too many people have taken advantage of this sensitive trait. You need aesthetic surroundings, or an equally sensitive and understanding partner with whom to share a warm understanding. The present situation, not of your making, is forcing you to compromise. You will have to hold back and forgo some of your hopes, dreams and aspirations.

As of late, you have been experiencing untold stress and this is a result of continuous frustration. You haven't been taking care of all your physical needs and it's beginning to show. It would seem that you have a need to find someone to whom you can really relate - someone perhaps whose standards are as high as your own. You want to be different - to be individualistic - to stand out from the common herd. Your inherent control of your sensual instincts is restricting your ability to give yourself to open up freely but this being on your own, being lonely, often makes you feel the need to give up some of your strict standards to surrender to the general flow - to be like everyone else; a part of the herd. Deep down you regard such instincts as weaknesses to be overcome. You would like to be loved or admired for yourself alone. You demand recognition and tender loving care.

The fear that you may not be able to fulfill or realize all of your ambitions makes you work and play hard. The thought of being prevented from achieving the things you want leads you to play your part with frantic fervor.

Mood Analysis Test

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Angeline winks
at |10:28 PM| 0 comments

Blessing in Disguise?

I simply can't believe my luck. I have been cycling at ECP for many times, even have no problems of cycling on the rocky and dangerous road in Ubin.

But, I actually fell flat to the ground while cycling today FOR NO REASON!

I just fell like that. Seriously, I had no idea why I actually fell off from my bicycle. The bicycle was in top condition, no pedestrians in front of me, no small kids running around and the road was totally clear. But, I actually just fell. (What the hell!)

No wonder people always say that when you are down in luck, some of the things just happen to you for no reason. ARGH.

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Angeline winks
at |4:55 PM| 2 comments

Sunday, September 25, 2005

Food Phobia

I have not been eating well for the past few days. I eat very little and sometimes I hardly can eat anything. The worse thing is, even if I eat anything, I will feel nausea after eating. And I don't even feel hungry if I never eat anything.

What's happening to my body? I used to be able to eat a lot. But now, even if you put my favourite food in front of me, I have no appetite to eat it at all.

If I still feel this way tomorrow, I may really need to see a doctor regarding this.

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Angeline winks
at |6:46 PM| 0 comments

Thursday, September 22, 2005

Are Friends Forever?

It had been a long time since I met up with some of my friends.

So, I decided to sms them to ask them out.

Unfortunately, almost of of them couldn't make it.

I was REALLY REALLY very disappointed.

I'm not angry at them or what... I do understand that they are busy at work. It's just that I'm just feel very disappointed that is it really so hard for us to have a gathering?

Somebody once told me that as all of your friends started working, it's very difficult to meet up. Even if there is any gathering, fewer and fewer people will turn up at the gathering each time. Gradually, you may just have your colleagues as friends only.

Now, I finally believe how true it is.

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Angeline winks
at |11:21 PM| 0 comments

Wednesday, September 21, 2005

Happy Me

This photo was taken at my 21st party last year. I personally think that I look very natural and happy in this picture.

The reason for putting this photo on my blog is to remind me constantly that I should always remember to smile happily everyday no matter what happens.

Cheers Angeline. You should feel lucky that you have so many people giving you support and encouraging you all this while.

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Angeline winks
at |11:03 PM| 0 comments

Monday, September 19, 2005

My head is SPINNING

I have splitting headache since Friday.

I feel like the world is spinning around me.

To make things worse, it seems like I'm allergic to all kinds of painkillers in this world.

Can somebody just chop off my head for me?

ARGH.

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Angeline winks
at |10:03 PM| 1 comments

Reflections II

I used to be very happy everyday. Nothing can upset me for long. But, as I compare those photos taken during my uni life and my recent photos, I start to realize that I used to look so much happier and cheerful. Those were the days in which I would always gossip with my friends, complain about school work, sing ktv as and when we want or even just hang around in the canteen doing nothing.

Everyday, I could feel the stress and burden. I can't even sleep well at night as most of the nights, I would dream of work. Sometimes, I even woke up in fear in the middle of the night.

Now, it seems like I have no time for anything. I hardly meet up with friends, hardly stay at home to watch TV and hardly have time to rest at home. What has happened to my social life? I want to meet up with my friends, but most of the time, I would be so tired that I simply can't drag myself to go out after work. Will my friends understand what I am experiencing? I guess only those in the same line as me will understand how I feel.

Seriously, sometimes I really feel very lonely deep inside. I feel like I am all alone in this world. If I have problems, who can I approach for help or who will actually be there for me?

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Angeline winks
at |7:59 PM| 0 comments

Sunday, September 18, 2005

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

Your Birthdate: October 3

Being born on the 3rd day of the month is likely to add a good bit of vitality to your life. The energy of 3 allows you bounce back rapidly from setbacks, physical or mental. There is a restlessness in your nature, but you seem to be able to portray an easygoing, "couldn't care less" attitude.

You have a natural ability to express yourself in public, and you always make a very good impression. Good with words, you excel in writing, speaking, and possibly singing. You are energetic and always a good conversationalist.

You have a keen imagination, but you tend to scatter your energies and become involved with too may superficial matters. You are affectionate and loving, but sometimes too sensitive. You are subject to rapid ups and downs.

What does your birthdate means?

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Angeline winks
at |11:14 PM| 0 comments

Sunday, September 11, 2005

Soccer Match

I was watching soccer match (Man Utd vs Man City) last night and it suddenly dawned on me that a soccer match was just like working in sales line.

When Man Utd was leading 1-0, the players lacked the sense of urgency and did not make full use of the advantage. Only when Man City scored a goal, the red devils then started to work real hard, hoping to score a goal to win the match.

However, all was too late.

The same thing applies to sales line. Some sales person tend to slack in the beginning of the day, thinking that they will definitely get some sales by the end of day. As the clock is ticking by and getting closer to the closing time, then the sales person starts to get panicked. It may be too late to do anything unless there is some miracle.

The morale of the story is you should have the fighting spirit and a sense of urgency right from the start of whatever you do. If not, it may be too late to do anything. On the other hand, even when you are approaching the closing time, don't give up hope. There may still be a chance in which you can still close a deal just like Everton which always managed to score 90th min goal last season.

10% of life is what happens to you, and the other 90% is how you react to it.

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Angeline winks
at |6:11 PM| 0 comments

~Happy Birthday to Yukai~

My title has said it all.

Just want to say a big Happy Birthday to Yukai! May you have a great day today and stay happy always.

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Angeline winks
at |9:47 AM| 0 comments

Tuesday, September 06, 2005

Painful Operation

I just had a minor eye operation.

I thought it would be a simple operation with no pain.

But, I was very WRONG.

It was FREAKING PAINFUL!!

I nearly died as the doctor injected the jab near my eye.

Suddenly, I felt that I was actually very brave to come for the operation alone, with nobody to accompany me.

Everything was okay until the my eye was patched. I realized I couldn't see very clearly and I needed somebody to guide me home.

Luckily I was able to catch a cab without walking blindly on the dark street for too long.

And the most fortunate thing was, I had a super loving sister who came down to bring me up home.

Anyway, I seriously hope that my eye would recover soon!

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Angeline winks
at |11:13 PM| 0 comments

Wild Wild Wet

It was my off day and Yukai suggested that we should go Wild Wild Wet today since we had not been there since last year. Though it wasn't really that happening, I had my own share of fun taking the rides while suntanning. Overall, it was a very relaxing and fun afternoon. Though today was school holiday, I was glad that it wasn't crowded to the extent that we had to wait very long for each ride. The bad thing was as compared to the last time I went there, there were lesser pretty bikini babes and hunks with more kids this time round. haha.

Other than Ular La and the Viking rides, I seriously don't think that the place is worth $12.90. In fact, I would think that it would be more worth it to go to the Jurong East Swimming Pool since it was cheaper and quite similar in a way. >_<>

Anyway, as we walked past the chalets at Downtown East, it reminded me of those days in which my secondary school friends would always book chalet during holidays. If I didn't remember wrongly, we used to have chalet at least once in a year! It was really fun as we would play like mad till dawn every night and sharing gossips with one another. I guess even if we were to have a chalet now with the same batch of people, the feeling might be different too.

As you can see, this is a random post. I do have a lot to say but I just can't put it to words. What's happening to me?

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Angeline winks
at |5:48 PM| 0 comments

Saturday, September 03, 2005

Quote of the Day

Speed is nothing without Endurance.
Endurance is nothing without Resolve
And Resolve is nothing without Glory.

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Angeline winks
at |8:17 PM| 0 comments

Thursday, September 01, 2005

Happy Teachers' Day

What's the proudest moment of a teacher?

When the student has changed for the better or when the student actually appreciates what the teacher has done for him/her, I would think that would be the proudest moment of a teacher.

You can ask any teacher and I guess they will give you the same answer.

Afterall, I strongly believe that teaching profession is a great profession.

Today is the first of September - the day on which the students would give gifts to their teachers to express their appreciation for them.

I had been a student before. Hence, on this special occasion, I would like to express gratitude to this particular teacher who has made an impact in my life.

Zhang Lao Shi (Mr Chang)
He was my Chinese relief teacher in secondary school. Not only did he teach me Chinese last time, he used to teach me A.Maths as well. I could still remember that he was really good in A.Maths to the extent that he could remember all the formulas and shortcuts though he was only a Chinese teacher. What makes him so different from other teachers is that he is like my confidante, my advisor or even my friend. Whenever I have a problem, I would definitely consult him and he would provide me with his valuable advice. I can talk to him about anything, be it school work, family or even relationships and I truly respect him for what he has taught me.

Unfortunately, we lost contact when he shifted house in 2001. All I know is that he has shifted to sengkang. All these years, I have been praying that I would meet him somehow in Compass Point or what. But, my search for him has been fruitless. Maybe if any of you who know who is he and you happen to see him in the streets, please kindly give him my contact number, will you?

All in all, I would like to thank all the teachers who had taught me throughout my school life!

Last of all, Happy Teachers' Day to all teachers!

By the way, I had received my first ever Teachers' Day present from my wonderful student, Gavriel! Hurray! It really feels good to receive the present.

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Angeline winks
at |10:54 PM| 2 comments