~*angie's lil reverie*~

MOS

These few days had been very happening for me. It's like I had been partying almost every night. December is simply the month for partying. This must have been one of my most happening December in my life. And I simply overspent like hell as well. But, who cares as long as I am having fun and I still have money for my meals? Haha.

My friends and I went MOS on Wednesday. The queue was freaking long! If I were a guy, I doubt I would have the patience to queue up to go in. Luckily, the girls' queue was quite short. Fortunately, the place was simply so cool, so I guess all the waiting is quite worth it. Anyway, all the different rooms have different concepts/themes with different music genre! There were a lot of hot babes and young cute dudes. But, I guess the place would be more fun and happening if only they raise the guys' age limit to 24 and the girls' age limit to 21 or what. It's quite a turn off to see small little girls and boys going to such happening pubs. Haha. I guess I would like to go MOS again to experience the happening ambience and to dance all night long. It's definitely the "in" place to be seen. Haha.

Anyway, I came home at 7pm today. It feels kinda weird that I am actually home so early. I guess I am so used to partying late that I find weird to spend my friday night with my pc. Nevertheless, I seriously think that I should just stay at home given that I'm still very tired despite sleeping very early last night.

"Some people come into our lives and quickly go. Some stay for awhile and leave footprints on our hearts. And we are never, ever the same"

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Angeline winks
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Monday, December 26, 2005

Random Photos

My cute nephew. He is simply the king of my family.

My Grandma

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Angeline winks
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==Lonely Week==

I'm bored, really bored.

My sis had left for Bangkok. Even my brother would be leaving for Shanghai in a few hours time. Why am I the only one in Singapore. Sigh. I'm going to be real lonely for this week! Maybe I should keep myself super super busy so that I won't have to go back to the empty and lonely house after work so early.

Ah. I really feel kinda lonely. I can ask my friends out, but the point is, I don't feel well and I don't even feel like going out. The TV shows sux as well. What a day!

I should just sleep early tonight.

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Angeline winks
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Partying

It had been quite some time since I had such a long break. Saturday, Sunday and Monday. It felt really good to have such a long break! Party, Party and more Party!

2005 is coming to an end. It had been a really eventful year for me and I had grown up a lot since I had graduated from NTU. And, it's time to write my New Year Resolutions. Looking back at my past year resolutions, it seems like I have to discipline myself to ensure that I will stick to my resolutions.

I think I had partied too much in December and this must be something which I must cut down on in 2006. It's simply not very healthy to party so much. It's not only bad for health, it's very bad for my complexion as well. My complexion has turned from bad to worse man. Sigh.

Besides, I got to work real hard from tomorrow onwards. Angie, You must Jia You. The road ahead of you is going to be difficult, but I believe that I will be able to succeed.

If you never try, you never know. Ganbattle!

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Angeline winks
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Eternal Love

It was a special Christmas yesterday as it was my sis ROM. I had been looking forward to this day since my sis had gone to Amara Hotel to book the place for the solemnization ceremony. The day had finally came.

I was supposed to help out, but seriously, I think there's nothing much I can do. So, I went around taking photos with my relatives and took some photos of the beautiful place. Everything was like so perfect... Such a wonderful place with the beautiful bride and groom. Moreover, the food was good as well. I love the laksa in particular. =p

The Groom and The Bride

This is simply so Romantic!

The solemization ceremony was quite a simple affair but it was quite romantic in my opinion. When the JP announced them to be wife and husband, I nearly burst into tears. I really feel so happy for my sis to be able to find The One.

I hereby wishing them everlasting love.

P/S: Why is it that I'll always have this desire to get married after attending any wedding? Haha.

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Angeline winks
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Sunday, December 25, 2005

Christmas Photos

Here are some of the photos taken at the Christmas Party held at Huiqing's place.

MT Christmas Group Photo (without Ray)
Front: Celene, Jem, Huiqing, Douglas
Back: John, Jason, Serene, Me, Jo

Union of The Meanies

The Beautiful Host & Me

How can I don't take photo with my ultimate Favourite Party Mate, Jo?

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The Pigs. Look at the big turkey wing in my hands!

Branch Group Photo.

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Angeline winks
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Christmas Photos II

Ray & Friends

Cool dudes with Sexy babe

Taking class photos?

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Angeline winks
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Saturday, December 24, 2005

Merry Christmas

Merry Christmas!

Well, I know it's not yet christmas, but who cares! Anyway, we had Compass Point christmas party today and it was really fun. We had fun snatching to eat the Golden Pillow, the Jack's Place turkey & Ham and of cos the log cake. We basically made a mess out of the whole branch. Haha. The most exciting part of the christmas party was the time in which all of us went around giving presents to each and everyone. Never did I know that giving presents could be so fun. haha. It's kinda a happy christmas for me this year and you know why? Cos I have gotten lotsa presents! haha. Call me a greedy pig or what, I simply love presents.

My presents this year:
Happiness Chan from Celene
Precious Moments Towel from Da Jie
Precious Moments Photo album from Pat
Nice hp pouch + keychain from Jo
Coin pouch from Kelly
Giordano shirt from Greg (can you believe that this guy actually bought such an expensive christmas gift!!)
CDRs from Jeremy (from my MT christmas party's gift exchange. WTH)
A pair of heels from my sis
Another pair of heels from Yukai

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We had a final farewell party for my boss last night at Ban Leong. (I know a lot of you have been telling me that we seem to have millions of farewell parties for my boss. But, I can assure you that this is indeed the final farewell party for him) This time round, we had the farewell party with my branch people. It felt really good to see him again. Maybe I still cannot accept the fact that he is no longer our boss. Anyway, Jo and I made him a really nice montage and it makes me feel damn happy that he really appreciates it. He was like so happy when he saw us carrying that big cardboard to the dinner. I guess he misses us as well. Afterall, though we had given him lotsa trouble, we had brought happiness and fun to him, just like what he had done to us. Who knows, he may actually misses Pat (the one who gave him the most trouble) the most.

At the end of the party, he even had a long fatherly talk with some of us regarding relationships. I guess he simply treats us as his children man. Though I can't really remember what exactly did he say, I remember him saying that even if we had gone through a bad relationship, we should treat it as a learning experience. Learn from our mistakes so that we can build a better relationship with the next person who comes along. When it comes to love, there is no right or wrong answer. It's amazing that loving somebody sometimes can make us lose ourselves that you have no idea what you are doing. You just know that you love that person and you would want him/her to be happy. Love can be so simple yet so complex. Anyway, boss always likes to give long lecture on relationships, as if he is worried that we may be hurt when it comes to heart matters. He is really like a father. Even my father does not talk to me when it comes to relationships. Haha.

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After the dinner, John came to pick Jo and Me to go to Huiching's place. By the time we reached there, it was already quite late. As usual, Douglas was already gone when we were there. This guy simply can't drink for nuts. Eventually, we started playing some card games which was quite boring. The real fun came only when all of us started to drink more. Like what Jo had said, Chivas and Vodka had simply became our best friends when it comes to partying. Standard Operating Procedure.

Anyway, as I had mentioned earlier, can you believe that Jeremy actually bought a set of CDRs for the gift exchange? I can't believe it man. Guys are simply like that. They just couldn't be bothered to spend some effort to buy a proper gift. You may think that CDRs are something very practical, but the point is I don't really use CDRs. John had gotten a cool Magic Love ball from Jo and I simply love it. I guess I should get myself one as well. =p

After the party, I went over to Jo's place to stay over night as her whole family was away for holidays. It was really a long night...

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Angeline winks
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Wednesday, December 21, 2005

Shopping Madness

I went shopping with my sister today and it was totally a very fulfilling one! I had a fun time shopping for presents for my friends and even bought some really nice dresses. I didn't really want to buy the dresses but they were so beautiful yet cheap that I couldn't resist the temptation. =p

Anyway, orchard was freaking crowded. I guess the whole Singapore had taken leave for Christmas shopping! It was totally so ridiculous. All the shops were so crowded and everybody seemed to spend a lot as well. The service industry must be doing very well during this festive season. I, myself had been a great contributor.

I also went for pedicure and medicure. I normally don't really go for such treatment, but since it's going to be my sis ROM this Sunday, I guess I may as well just pamper myself so that I will look good on that special day as well. It was totally so enjoyable and nice. I really hope I can be like those tai-tais I saw today, doing pedicure/medicure as and when they like.

All in all, today has been an enjoyable day. It was indeed a well-spent off day. I am so happy today despite that I had burnt a hole in my pocket. Retail therapy is really effective.

Well, many of my friends had been scolding me for spending so much and not making extra effort to save. I guess, they are right, I should really start saving for rainy days. But, I think I can only start saving next month...

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Angeline winks
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My Baby

Never had I ever spent so much money on myself... But, I simply can't resist the temptation but to buy this beautiful 3G phone!

Don't you think my baby is simply so chio? I tried video calling with my friend, and it's quite fun. haha. The only thing is the phone has so many functions that I have yet to explore all of them. I don't even know how to look for my Missed Call list, etc. I am simply a gadget idiot, I guess I need more time to explore this phone.

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Anyway, I met up with Shixing last night for dinner at Chomp Chomp. And he is really nice to fetch me from Upper Serangoon when it's so inconvenient for him. (By the way, I think his driving skills have improved by leaps and bounds. =p Even the way he drives, he looks kinda like Jay Chou in Initial D) This guy is really amazing man, he never fails to make me laugh. I can talk to him about anything under the sun and somehow or other, I simply feel very comfortable talking to him. I really miss those days in which we would always talk on phone and gossip about the people we know on our way to school or back home. I guess my uni life would be so different if not for him.

He is a nice guy and I hope that one day, he would be able to find a perfect girlfriend. Don't worry Shixing, if I ever find a suitable girl friend, I would remember to recommend to you. haha.

PS: I thought I had gotten over my camera, but know what? I dreamt that I found my camera last night!

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Angeline winks
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Sunday, December 18, 2005

Lonely Year End

I have been writing quite regularly lately. It's like I can write 2-3 posts in a day. Maybe I have too much to complain lately and blogging has become my channel to unleash all my unhappiness. But, of course, there are certain things which I still prefer to write in my diary.

Anyway, I just realize that nobody will be at home from 26th dec onwards! Both my sis and bro are going overseas which means that I am going to be real alone at home. And I have to sleep alone in my room. I really hate to sleep alone. I'm going to miss my sis so much. Sigh. But, I guess I got to get used to sleeping alone since my sis would be moving out soon. That's part of growing up.

Since young, I have been very close to my sister. I will always consult her for opinion for any matters, and I always respect her opinion. I really can't imagine how is it like to sleep alone in the room with nobody to talk to. I am simply used to talk to my sis before I sleep. Things would just be so different without my sis staying under the same roof. I would have to watch tv alone; nobody to gossip with me before I sleep; nobody to hear my complaints; and most importantly, I have to sleep alone.

So, are there any volunteers around who don't mind staying over at my place for that period of time?

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Angeline winks
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Boss Farewell Party

We had our farewell party for Boss last night. Though I was really tired and dizzy, I told myself I must go no matter what. Afterall, it would be the last time we would have such major gathering with Boss.

Initially, the gathering was really boring as the BMs were chit chatting together and the pfcs were talking among themselves. And I don't really know the other pfcs in my cluster so I was feeling really bored and out of place. Fortunately, Jo and a few of us started playing our favourite dice game and the party just started. Sometimes, it's really important to have alcohol to kick start a party. Eventually, the BMs joined in the game and it was really fun to make the BMs tah glasses and glasses of Chivas. Haha. We partied till 12 plus and seriously, when I said goodbye to boss, I felt very upset. Sigh.

Here are some of the precious photos which we had taken last night.

Boss in his favourite "Finding Nemo" shirt. I simply don't understand why he likes to wear this shirt, it looks so FINDING NEMO.

Boss & Us

Don't you think I look like his daughter in this photo? That's why I say he is like a father to me.

Me with Lam! My saviour for all housing loan inquiries!

My wonderful SM, Da-jie & me

Last of all, my best party mate - Jo

All in all, it had been a great farewell party. The only regret would be that we didn't really have the chance to talk to boss personally. I nearly cried when he told us that though he is no longer our boss, he would always be a phone call away from us and we can always call him if we ever need his help.

Boss, you are simply the best.

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Angeline winks
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Enough Is Enough

Celene had lent me the book, Enough Is Enough written by Jane Straus. It's a very interesting book as it really makes you think and in a way, it helps you to find purpose in life.

I like this paragraph in particular.

"Each day we live, we have a choice. The choice to continue torturing ourselves with self-judgement creates war within us and between us. The choice to release ourselves from the tyranny of these thoughts creates peace. Every day, we create either war or peace. We endure or we thrive. We live an ordinary life or an extraordinary one? Which do you choose today?"

I choose to live an extraordinary life.

I, Angeline believe that I am worthy.
I, Angeline believe that I will succeed in life.
I, Angeline believe that I will be able to build long-lasting relationship with the people I love.

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Angeline winks
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D&D Photos

Here are some of the precious D&D photos which I had gotten from my friends. Just hope that my other friends would all upload more photos and send to me!

The Pretty Girls

Group Photo

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Angeline winks
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Friday, December 16, 2005

Goodbye

I feel particularly upset today. One of my MT mates had officially left ocbc. Reading the email that he had sent to us simply made me very upset.

My MT had started with 26 people, but now, it seems like one by one had left the company and the group just became smaller and smaller. Though we told one another that we must still keep in contact even if we were to leave the company, how many of us can actually do that? Without the regular training in which we get to see one another, when you leave the company, it just takes extra effort for us to meet up now. Even for now, only the same old few people turn up for the MT gathering. I guess, that's life. People do move on.

Today is also my boss last day with us. Farewell is always sad. Being a sentimental person, I can't help but to feel upset. In fact, I feel super upset when I realize that quite a lot of people won't be able to make it for the farewell party tomorrow night. I mean what can be more important than the farewell party for boss? But, I guess they aren't that close with boss, which is why they don't see the point of going for such party.

To me, boss has left a great impact on my life. I would always remember him as a great boss as he had really been a very inspiring boss. He is like a father to me. Though he would always scold me for my lousy sales, I know he still cares for me. If not, he would not have asked me to take off day whenever he realized that I had been working for all weekends. Still remember that I was really touched when he told my colleague to work for one particular Sunday so that I could rest. All in all, my boss has been really very nice to us. I am really going to miss all his morning meetings, dirty jokes, all his very chime lecture on products (which we don't really understand most of the time) and I must thank him for teaching me hokkien. Thanx to him, I finally know what's the meaning of Pa Ban now. =p When I have made myself proud one day, I would definitely give him a call to thank him.

Boss, I'm really going to miss you.

Good byes make you think, they make you realize what you've had, what you've lost and what meaning it is.

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Angeline winks
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Thursday, December 15, 2005

D&D

Well, I have been complaining so much about my camera that I didn't mention anything about my company D&D. I guess I would be doing my company D&D injustice if I condemn it just because I lost my camera.

Anyway, D&D was quite fun. I must say I did have fun for the whole night. All of them were trying to make my boss drunk and they just kept on asking him to tah. It was quite funny to see my boss getting more and more drunk and his face started to turn redder and redder. Though I didn't really drink a lot, I was totally in a daze for the D&D. Maybe I shouldn't have drunk on an empty stomach, cos after a few glasses of red wine, I was already feeling quite miserable. I was totally not drunk, but I guess I was just feeling kinda high. Cos I had allowed myself to get high.

In the end, everything ended quite early. By 12am, I had already left the ball room. The whole night would really be perfect if I didn't lose my camera. I'm sorry but I still cannot bring myself to accept the fact that I had lost my camera. Well, like what my friend had said to me, maybe the photos were just not meant to be mine.

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No wonder people say Ignorance is bliss. There are things in which I rather not to know. Yet, the more you don't want to know, the more you tend to know from other people. Sigh. If only there is a potion in which it can help me erase those things which I don't wish to remember...

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Angeline winks
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Crying Angie No More

Well, I was in turbulent state last night. My mood was like riding the roller coaster, with ups and downs.

I really appreciate those friends who were there listening to my complaints, or just being there for me. Jo, thanx for talking some sense to me, I think I know what to do now. And thanx my sis for assuring me that I am still the same Minmin whom she loves. Not to forget, I would like to thank my bf who is always there for me, no matter how unreasonable I have been. Also, I would like to thank those friends who sms me to ask me if I am feeling okay. Really appreciate your care and concern. It just had been a bad day for me. You guys make me feel loved and cared. Millions of thanx to you guys!

Today is a brand new day. I believe everything will go on fine for me! Cheers! =p

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Angeline winks
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Wednesday, December 14, 2005

Sinking into Depression

I can no longer lie to myself. I am sinking into depression. I just can't stop crying in office. Even my customer asks if I am feeling okay. My mind is in a confused state.

Don't be mistaken. I am not sinking into depression just because of my camera though I must admit that it does play a part. It's an accumulation of mixed emotions building up in me for the past few days. And I feel sad that my friend actually told me that she feels upset after reading my blog. I thought I have told myself that I am not going to write any depressing stuff on my blog? WTH. I hate to make people worry about me so I keep telling myself that I must be strong no matter what. This is also the reason why I never allow myself to let people know that I am depressed.

What's happening to me? Why can't I just get out of this depression state?

Will tomorrow be a better day for me? I seriously hope so.

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Angeline winks
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Still Upset

Here I am in the office, still feeling super upset over the loss of my camera. No matter what my friends/colleagues have been telling me, I just can't get over it. For the whole night, I was trying so hard to recall what exactly happened last night. I just couldn't believe that I would leave my camera behind! The pain of losing my camera is too hard for me to bear.

I know the chances of me finding back my camera is very slim but I still hold on the slightest hope that I may actually find back my camera.

I really want my camera back.

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Angeline winks
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I'm the dumbest person on earth

I feel that I must be the dumbest person on earth.

I was happily taking photos at my company D&D with my wonderful camera. And know what? I actually lost my camera! I am freaking pissed at myself. Feeling super upset as well.

It must be my retribution. Sigh.

The reason why I was still awake at this time was because I had woken up from my sleep and I couldn't sleep anymore due to the loss of my beloved camera.

I had lost my camera and the photos I had taken at D&D. Sigh.

I am simply so dumb.

I curse that damn person who had taken my camera to die of horrible death and if he/she is a sales person, I curse him/her that he/she has no sales! Pissed. If he/she still has some conscience, I really hope that he/she will at least return my memory card.

Note: I was so pissed that I couldn't sleep the whole night and I began to think of a lot of stuff. And I'm going to make 2 major decisions by end of this week.

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Angeline winks
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Monday, December 12, 2005

My Boss

My boss is leaving us officially this Wednesday. Seriously speaking, I think I am going to miss all his scoldings and his marathon story which he likes to repeat every meeting. He has been a really good boss and I respect him a lot. And he has been really nice to me.

Sad to say, I think I have really let him down all these months under him. He has really been very tolerant and no matter how bad my sales is, he will always encourage me with his inspiring stories. I told him last month that I would make him proud. But, in the end, that didn't come true. Sigh. Why couldn't I make him proud before he actually leaves us? I really wonder when can I make him proud? Hai.

Anyway, sales has been really bad lately. And it's demoralizing me and draining all my energy. I see no motivation in working as I am becoming more like a customer service officer than anything. For the past few days, I have been opening numerous accounts (personal or corporate), handling customers' millions of funny enquiries and doing operation stuff. Basically, I have been doing everything except sales. I may as well be a customer service officer. Moreover, some customers simply behave as if I am merely a customer service officer at an information counter. I really feel like telling these customers," HELLO, I AM A PERSONAL FINANCIAL CONSULTANT & NOT A CUSTOMER SERVICE OFFICER"! WTH.

I have always believe in giving good service to all customers and I dare to say that I have been providing good service to most customers. But, the thing is, we are not measured by our service. It comes back to the point that our performance is still measured by our sales figures. Who cares if you do receive compliments from the customers? Nobody really cares. Ultimately, it's your sales figures that really matter. Sigh. That's the true fact of this line.

On a lighter note, it's my company D&D tomorrow! I'm kinda excited over it as I like this kind of function in which all the girls will dress up so as to charm the guys! Though I think there aren't many/any handsome eligible bachelors in my company. Haha. My university sports ball had always been very fun with lotsa alcohol and photo taking session. Still remember that I used to drink a lot and get drunk so fast (like within one hour) that I must rush around taking photos with my friends before I started drinking. Those were the days in which I could really do crazy stuff. As for the D&D tomorrow, I guess I should just stay away from alcohol and just be glamorous for the night. Anyway, just hope that my company D&D would be just as fun as well and I would be able to take many beautiful photos! I must definitely remember to take a photo of my boss so that you guys can see how handsome my boss is. Haha.

It's getting late. Think it's time for me to have my beauty sleep so that I won't look like a zombie!

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Angeline winks
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Sunday, December 11, 2005

Refreshed

I had just gotten home from my short trip and I feel so REFRESHED!

It was a wonderful trip with great company and great food. The place was simply great for a weekend trip. Peaceful and Simple. I can just be Angeline and just enjoy all I want. Most importantly, I don't have to think about work. All in all, I had truly enjoyed myself. I nearly couldn't bring myself back to Singapore.

Now that I am back, the reality sets in. I still got to report for work tomorrow.

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Angeline winks
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Friday, December 09, 2005

The Mayonnaise Jar and Coffee

When things in your life seem almost too much to handle, when 24 hours in a day are not enough, remember the mayonnaise jar... and the coffee...

A professor stood before his philosophy class and had some items in front of him. When the class began, wordlessly, he picked up a very large and an empty mayonnaise jar and proceeded to fill it with golf balls. He then asked the students if the jar was full. They agreed that it was.

So the professor then picked up a box of pebbles and poured them into the jar. He shook the jar lightly. The pebbles rolled into the open areas between the golf balls. He then asked the students again if the jar was full. They agreed it was.

The professor next picked up a box of sand and poured it into the jar. Of course, the sand filled up everything else. He asked once more if the jar was full. The students responded with a unanimous "yes."

The professor then produced two cups of coffee from under the table and poured the entire contents into the jar, effectively filling the empty space between the sand. The students laughed.
"Now," said the professor, as the laughter subsided,"I want you to recognize that this jar represents your life.The golf balls are the important things- your God, family, your children, your health, your friends, and your favorite passions-things that if everything else was lost and only they remained, your life would still be full. The pebbles are the other things that matter like your job, your house, and your car. The sand is everything else-the small stuff."If you put the sand into the jar first," he continued, "there is no room for the pebbles or the golf balls. The same goes for life."

If you spend all your time and energy on the small stuff, you will never have room for the things that are important to you. Pay attention to the things that are critical to your happiness. Play with your children. Take time to get medical checkups. Take your partner out to dinner. Play another 18. There will always be time to clean the house and fix the disposal. Take care of the golf balls first, the things that really matter. Set your priorities. The rest is just sand.

One of the students raised her hand and inquired what the coffee represented.

The professor smiled. "I'm glad you asked.It just goes to show you that no matter how full your life may seem, there's always room for a couple of cups of coffee with a friend."

Please share this with someone you care about.

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Angeline winks
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Tuesday, December 06, 2005

My Car

Isn't this car very cool?

I'm going to be a proud owner of this car at 11pm tonight! Haha. {praying}

By the way, the top prize for my company's D&D is a SPORTS CAR. I'm simply looking forward to the D&D not for anything, but simply for the lucky draw.

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Anyway, I went Devils (again) yesterday. The drinks were cheap and the wings were superb. Moreover, the company was great. I was glad that Celene came with us eventually after much persistence by Ray and me as I believe it won't be that fun without her.

I'm starting to worry that I'm turning into an alcoholic subconsciously. Just hope that I could stay away from alcohol for rest of the week.

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Angeline winks
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Sunday, December 04, 2005

Re-Energized

I guess my previous post sounded a bit too negative. Well, I wrote it when I was feeling real down last night, so you can't expect much right?

To all my friends who have been reading my blog, I am sincerely sorry that my recent posts have been so boring and depressed. I promise I would write more happy stuff in future, okay? And I am feeling really okay. It's just that there are times in which I am in need of reassurance and soul-searching. I am still the happy-go-lucky Angeline. (Look at the photo below)

I have decided to put this stupid photo of mine on my blog so as to remind myself that I must SMILE, SMILE and SMILE!

Anyway, I'm going for a short trip soon! I am feeling real excited over it. I have been looking forward to this trip ever since I had made reservations for the trip! I must be very motivated to work this coming week so that I would feel that I deserve the break rightfully! Yeah!

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Angeline winks
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Saturday, December 03, 2005

I need reassurance

I am always smiling as I know that people around me want to see my smiling face. But, nobody knows what lies beneath the smiling face. Am I really that happy?

Looking at myself in the mirror, I can only see depression and loneliness behind the smiling face.

No matter how depressed I am, I always try to rub it off by smiling as I don't really like to let people know that I am depressed. Ego? Maybe. All I know is that I do not want another people to worry about my problems or to get depressed all because of me. Only when I am alone, I allow myself to unleash all my emotions which have been bottling up inside me. In actual fact, I really feel kinda miserable. There are times in which my heart hurts so much that I feel like I am going to die of heart ache. I really don't know what I want in life. Why am I so depressed all the time? I hate myself for writing such sad posts all the time.

I really want to be happy all over again.

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Angeline winks
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Knowing About Me

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

You are more than a big ball of energy - you are a big ball of hyper. You are always on the go, but you don't have a type a personality. Instead of channeling your energy into work, you instead go for fun and adventure. Witty and verbal, you can have an interesting conversation with anyone.

Your strength: Your larger than life imagination
Your weakness: You tend to be pretty scattered
Your power color: Lime
Your power symbol: Lightening bolt
Your power month: March

What Year Were You Born Under?

You Were Actually Born Under The Year of PIG

No worries, you're not really pig-like in your personality. (Though you have been known to have a healthy appetite!)
You are highly intelligent - forever studying and gaining knowledge.
You have a heart of gold and you are appreciated by many.
You are most compatible with a Rabbit or Goat.

What Type of Ex Are You?

You Are A Friendly Ex

You and your ex are just friends - great friends really. (At least that's what you keep telling yourself!)
While civility is a good thing, make sure you're not secretly wanting more...

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Angeline winks
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