~*angie's lil reverie*~

Insomnia

I'm really tired.

For the past few nights, I had been sleeping at 3am!

I'm really very tired and sleepy, but I have no idea why is it that I just can't seem to sleep. Now, I finally understand how tired my boss must has been (FYI, my boss sleeps at 3am like everynight?).

Just hope that I can finally sleep well tonight...

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Angeline winks
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Monday, May 29, 2006

Asthma Attack

When I was much younger, there was once in which I had a really bad asthma attack. I couldn't breathe at all and I thought I was dying. I could still remember that I actually cried and I held on very tightly to my father. To a small girl at that time, I guess that was quite a horrifying experience.

When I was jogging just now, I felt a sharp pain in my heart. And I couldn't really catch my breath. I started to jog slowly, hoping to catch my breath. I could feel that my breathing was getting louder and louder as I continued to jog. To make things worse, I actually stopped at a petrol station, and I really had difficulty in breathing with all the polluted air around me. Luckily, I managed to drink some water and had some fresh air much further away from the petrol station. And so I'm still alive and kicking.

Sometimes, I really wonder what is it like to die? And what's life after death? Will anybody cry for me at my funeral? And how many people will actually miss me when I'm no longer around? I guess I would never know.

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Angeline winks
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Monday Blues

I was pms-ing the whole of Sunday. I had no mood to do anything, and basically I was rotting at home for the whole day. I tried to take a nap, but it was unsuccessful attempt.

Anyway, don't know if there's something wrong with me or what, I couldn't sleep until 3am last night. And when I woke up this morning, I thought that today is a Saturday which means that I only have to work for half day. But, I am so wrong.

Today is MONDAY.

Argh!

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Angeline winks
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Sunday, May 28, 2006

Liquid Kitchen II

I went Liquid Kitchen with Beng Chuan yesterday. It's really quite a nice place just to relax and just drink. When I say drink, I don't mean those hardcore drinking. haha. There's nice music plus good food with good service rendered by the staff there.

We ordered a bottle of white wine and some food. I can't drink wine for goodness sake, so I have no idea whether the white wine is considered good or not, but at least it's quite drinkable. As for the food, the potato wedges are just as good while the Mexican wings just don't taste that good.

Though we only drank one bottle of wine, I had a bad headache when I was home. Haha. I guess white wine is simply not for me.

Just Me @ Liquid Kitchen

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Angeline winks
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Saturday, May 27, 2006

I MEME

I AM: a girl who simply wants to lead a simple and happy life.
I WANT: to lose my memory and start my life afresh.
I WISH: life could be much simpler.
I HATE: liars.
I MISS: my happy school days.
I FEAR: of losing my family and close friends.
I HEAR: rumours and gossips almost everyday.
I WONDER: what has happened to me over the past one year.
I REGRET: going into sales line.
I AM NOT: that happy.
I DANCE: to nice music.
I SING: horribly but I love to sing.
I CRY: whenever I've been hurt by the people close to me.
I AM NOT ALWAYS: depressed.
I MAKE WITH MY HANDS: for people I care if I can.
I WRITE: to relieve stress and unhappiness.
I CONFUSE: reality with fairytale.
I NEED: to learn to analyze facts on my own.
I SHOULD: stop thinking so much.
I START: to get pessimistic at times.
I FINISH: this thing in 10 mins time.
I LOVE: to tell people I love that I really love them.
I REMEMBER: all the people who have helped me before.

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Angeline winks
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Friday, May 26, 2006

Geylang Outing

My stomach doesn't feel well. Maybe it's because of the junk food I ate yesterday. I ate fish porridge for lunch, followed by potato chips. Then for dinner, I ate mee suan and bread. After which, I ate fried oyster, beef kway teow and frog legs' porridge @ geylang for supper.

I guess my stomach couldn't stand the way I stuffed myself with food and it's complaining to me now. I should just eat something light for lunch and dinner today to remove the toxins in my body. Haha.

It was damn funny yesterday. Boss was very angry at us for our bad sales. So, we just assumed that the geylang outing would be postponed. When we finished our dinner, we were horrified when he said that we were still going geylang as planned. I nearly fainted as I was really very full. Nevertheless, since boss didn't stop us from going, we decided to go with our plans.

It was a wonderful dinner and we have interesting conversation over the supper. I was laughing like hell throughout the whole supper time. We stayed until 11+ and some of us decided to go home first while the rest of them went for drinking session.

As a good girl, I went home. I have not been drinking for 2 weeks and I would really want to continue this way. =p Besides, my sis wanted me to help her to write her wedding cards, so it's definitely a right choice to go back home.

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Angeline winks
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Thursday, May 25, 2006

Horrified

It's horrifying to know how scary a person can be.

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Angeline winks
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Ghost Town

My blog is getting boring. I am running out of interesting things to write. And most importantly, my life has been quite boring lately. Nothing fantastic to talk about.

It's getting weird, but branch has been REAL quiet lately. For this, I have to give credit to my friends, Ray and Pat who are smart enough to take leave in this month. I guess many of our customers have taken leave to go travelling with their kids, that's why. And nobody is really interested to talk about investments at this period of time, given that they only have holidays in their mind. Even for me, I feel like going on holiday! I feel like going on a long break. To somewhere really far away. When will I have the chance? Actually, I was given a chance a few weeks ago, unfortunately, due to the clash of the leave with my colleague, I have to forgo the opportunity of going to the country which I love. Maybe it's just not meant to be.

Anyway, I would be going to Malaysia with my secondary friends in June. This is something which I'm looking forward to! I love being with them, joking around and talking about anything under the sun. They are true friends whom I would really treasure. It would be a short getaway in June. I can't wait for the weekend to come! It would be the first time I would be travelling with my secondary school friends, so I guess it's going to be very fun. And there would be about 14 of us! So exciting, isn't it? Heehee.

Just hope that I would have something exciting to write about soon... Hmm...

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Angeline winks
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Tuesday, May 23, 2006

Roadshow

I went for the bi-annually CFS Roadshow last night. It was super boring. For the whole day, I was trying to think of millions of excuses to skip the event. Haha. Unfortunately, my plan failed as I couldn't fix any appointment for the night and so I had to go for the event. If I didn't remember wrongly, I sat with Alicia last year and this year round, I sat with my colleagues. In fact, I didn't see many of my MT mates. Maybe they were smarter than me in siam-ing such event. Haha.

I was feeling quite upset after the event, and so I went home immediately. Unfortunately, my beloved sister was also pms-ing, so basically we were like 2 super depressed sisters @ home.
Lately, I really hate to go home when nobody is at home. It's as if I am staying alone in my 5-room sengkang flat. Therefore, I really treasure those nights in which my sister is at home. At least, there would be someone to talk to, someone to complain to, or someone to accompany me to sleep.

Though I may have friends, I guess family members are truly the ones who will not judge you, and they will not abandon you no matter what happens.

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Angeline winks
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Sunday, May 21, 2006

Sunday Blues

I just woke up from my nap. I don't know why, but I just feel very lost out of the sudden. Actually, I really hate to sleep on sunday, cos I would always feel quite depressed when I wake up. Yet, I'm always so tired that I can't help but to fall asleep on my bed after dinner. And the worst thing is I'm alone @ home. I really hate to be alone @ home. Sigh. Maybe I should have gone out with my friends instead.

I really hate sunday.

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Angeline winks
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Intruder!

I was feeling very tired when I went to work this morning and I was determined to go home to have a nap before going out later in the evening. So, can you imagine how horrified I was when my SA told me that my boss was going going to have a meeting with us after work? I nearly fainted. All of us were very upset that we had to stay back for meeting, thus we went for a happy lunch at SAKURA.

Jo and Me, looking damn tired.

But, we realized that we looked kinda bad without smiling. And so, we decided to smile happily instead.

Smiling PFCs finally

Anyway, my branch was quite happening today. Early in the morning, there was a rat running around in my branch! We were screaming like nobody business and running around, trying very hard to escape from the rat. Eventually, the rat ran into the meeting room. As there wasn't any available place for me to make presentations to my customers, I had no choice but to stay in the meeting room. The funny thing was that my customers were not freaked out by the rat, and they actually said that the rat was kinda cute like a hamster. I was trying so hard to keep my cool while presenting to my customers.

I really have no idea why is it that a rat could be loitering in a bank?

It's really very weird. Hmm...

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Angeline winks
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Saturday, May 20, 2006

My Romantic Pattern - Love VS Honor

Love vs. Honor is the most dramatic pattern of all - defined by an innate tug of war between what you want to do and what you think you should do.

But, here's the recurring pattern you may see in your relationships: There is something coming between you and love.

Perhaps it's a religious conviction, a previous commitment, family, patriotic duty, or deep belief that good things only come at a terrible price.

You tend to put others' needs before your own. Romance is not your number one priority, though in the back of your mind you are holding out for a soul mate.

If you're looking for examples you can start back with the Greek myths where heroes were often forced to give up love and the comforts of home for battles in far-off lands. In Charles Dickens' "Great Expectations," Estella chooses to obey her benefactress and break Pip's heart, even though she deeply regrets doing so. Political obligations and previous relationships tear Humphrey Bogart and Ingrid Bergman apart in the unforgettable film "Casablanca."

In your pattern, you find your soul mate, only to discover you can't be together unless you give up something precious, or jeopardize other relationships or ideals that are important to you. The decision itself is at the heart of your pattern. How do you choose? If this is your one chance at true love, can anything be worth giving it up? Can you enjoy love knowing you've betrayed something dear to you to achieve it? Or will the love be stronger for your sacrifice. This pattern is about confronting your values and life choices. It's about reevaluating what's important to you and choosing to remain on the same path or move in a new direction.

If you've devoted yourself to long-term academic study or a consuming career that demands longevity in order to succeed, careers like medicine, law, business - you might feel you're letting yourself down if you throw yourself off-track with a relationship. Do you have a family member for whom choice of religion, career, social position is a really big deal? Are you afraid to disappoint them if your partner doesn't match the mold?

In the movie version of "The End of the Affair," Julianne Moore plays a woman who makes a pact with God to stop cheating on her husband if her lover survives a terrible injury. When he lives, she's forced to keep her promise, breaking both their hearts in the process. All relationships, at some point or another, require sacrifices. These painful decisions are familiar to everyone. No wonder it's so easy to relate to this romantic pattern's historical, literary, and cinematic counterparts. You're living it!!

It's kinda scary how accurate the results of this online quiz can be. Maybe you guys can try this test as well.

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Angeline winks
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Friday, May 19, 2006

Meeting up with my hall buddy

As usual, I left my office quite early on a friday evening. I simply have no mood to stay back in office on a friday night. Afterall, I had been staying back for the past few nights, so I guess I deserve to leave office early today.

Anyway, I went to meet my hall buddy, David for dinner after work. I think the last time I met him was like during Chinese New Year in which we met up for a drink at MacDonald's. I was supposed to treat him for dinner as it was his birthday last week, but know what? I actually left my wallet in the office! Super off-form. My buddy must be thinking that I must have purposely left my wallet in the office so that I don't have to pay for the meal. haha.

We had a great dinner at Sakae Sushi. I was really full, but I had craving for ice-cream, so we went to buy the traditional ice-cream from the mobile ice-cream vendor outside Taka.

It was really nice meeting up with my buddy. I'm impressed that he could remember so many things which I had told him before. If you know me well, you will realize that I tend to talk so much that I have this tendency to repeat my stories a lot of times. And I have a lot of stories to say most of the time, so it's amazing that he could remember so much. He's indeed my good buddy.

And so, I'm home at 11+ on a friday night. Kinda early, isn't it?

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Angeline winks
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Tired Boss

This picture says it all

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Angeline winks
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Sleeping Early

It's amazing that I could actually work for the whole day yesterday all the way till 9pm! An amazing feat. I was really tired and I left branch punctually at 9pm. I was totally like a zombie going home. Haha. Even my family was surprised to see me home so early. And I headed to bed at 10+ after my bath. I'm really that tired.

Today will be a great day for sales! Woohoo!

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Angeline winks
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Thursday, May 18, 2006

Relationship II

What is relationship to you?

A simple question will millions of answers to it. My friends and I had a serious conversation on relationships and we had came to a conclusion: Relationships are Complicated. Each and every of us has a different story on relationship or even different perspectives towards it. I always think that those complicated relationships would only appear in HK drama shows, but apparently, I'm wrong. It can happen to any of us. And once you are in it, it's hard for you to get out of the maze. It's as if you are trapped. And sometimes, it's just out of your control. The thing about relationship is, your friends can advise you with regards to relationship but ultimately, you have make decision on your own. It's your relationship afterall.

"Love is passion, obsession, someone you can't live without. If you don't start with that, what are you going to end up with? Fall head over heels. I say find someone you can love like crazy and who'll love you the same way back. And how do you find him? Forget your head and listen to your heart. I'm not hearing any heart. Run the risk, if you get hurt, you'll come back. Because, the truth is there is no sense living your life without this. To make the journey and not fall deeply in love - well, you haven't lived a life at all. You have to try. Because if you haven't tried, you haven't lived."~ Meet Joe Black

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Angeline winks
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Ramblings III

Some colleagues and I decided to be happening and so we went to Boss place to watch Champions League Finals in the middle of the night last night. Though his place was very near my house, I was just too lazy to walk back hom at 5am and so I took cab home. The cab fare was only $3.75 so you can imagine how near my boss place was to my house. haha.

I slept like only 3 hours plus and here I am @ work again. I am feeling kinda stoned. The good thing is branch is kinda quiet so I don't really have to entertain customers and I can do my own stuff. The bad thing is I would be dead if my appointments don't come as branch is really quiet. No walk-ins to talk about at all. Please pray for me that my customers would come later in the afternoon, ya?

Anyway, 7th of June 2006 will mark my one year anniversary in OCBC. So, I've survived in this job for one year. But, looking back, what has I achieved? In fact, I've achieved nothing. This is a sad truth which I can't deny. I feel super upset whenever I think about this. What has happened? I thought I was an achiever in whatever I do? What am I doing? And what has I been doing for the past one year? And why is it that I can't make it to the Bali Trip? I know that I don't deserve to go for the Bali Trip, but why is it so? During school days, I would always be the chosen one to go for such incentive trip. Sigh. It's like everything had passed like a breeze.

I kept on asking myself why am I still in this job? And the reason is clear, I would have left the bank months ago if not for Raymond Yong. Everything had changed ever since he came to my branch. We were much motivated, much happier, much closer as a team, though we feel more stressful. He is really a good boss and I'm grateful to him for his faith in all of us. He never gives up on us. If it has been other boss who handles our branch, I guess he/she would have given up on us long ago. But, boss never gives up on us. No matter how angry he is with us, at the end of the day, he would still take care of us. Maybe that's why he is NO. 1 BM.

I guess I've grown up a lot for the past one year. I've seen and heard of horrible things which I would rather not know. I've been through a lot as well which not many people would actually understand. It's like my life had been a roller coaster ride ever since I was posted to branch. Everything happens for a reason. I guess all these experiences would force me to grow up to get out of my covered up shell. Have I changed? I don't know. This is for my friends and family to judge. I just hope that I can remain adamant about everything, and continue to live in my simple angie's world.

I am thankful for the wonderful boss and colleagues I have at Compass Point. Given that if I have been posted to other branch, I doubt I would be that happy. Though we do have conflicts at times, I sincerely enjoy those times chit chatting with them and playing around in branch. I'm considered to be quite lucky as people like Boss, Ailing, Dajie and Jo have really been very nice to me and they are always helping me whenever I need help. I'm also thankful for my wonderful friends like Celene, Jianhui, and many others for listening to my complaints and being there for me. And my wonderful family has always been so supportive despite me always going home late at night.

All I want to say to all of you reading my blog, thank you so much for being there for me.

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Angeline winks
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Tuesday, May 16, 2006

Food Trial

Despite it was public holiday last friday, I took off today as I was going for food trial for my sister's wedding at Meritus Mandarin. Besides, I really feel like going East Coast Park again.

It was a relaxing cycling trip. Most of the time, we were lying at the Breakwater, listening to the songs in my hp while enjoying the breeze. It feels great. It would be better if only I could bring myself to off my hp so that I won't be disturbed by any calls regarding my work.

Maybe I'm getting old or what, but I really feel very tired after exercising. It's like I feel that I would run out of energy quite easily lately. Am I getting old? Or is it that my work is making me so tired? Hmm...

Anyway, I went to Somerset to meet my sister after shopping for awhile at Suntec. My sister and Alan were busy selecting the decorations for their banquet while I try to join by my giving some of my personal opinions. I have no say actually since it's their wedding afterall. Haha.

I was super hungry that I kept on bugging my sister when they would be serving the food and I ate a lot of the peanuts served on the table. haha. All in all, it was a wonderful 9 courses dinner.

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Anyway, I woke up this morning with a shock when I read the smses in my hp. My best friend, Limin's grandma had passed away last night. Whenever I heard of such news, I would feel very upset. Life is really fragile, so I guess all of us should treasure our loved ones and friends around us. Limin, you must be strong, okay? You know that I would always be there for you.

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Angeline winks
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Sunday, May 14, 2006

Pissed

Not that I like to complain, but I'm super pissed today. I was scheduled to go Hougang Point for sunday banking today, and so I went there with the intention to do some of my work there. Know what? There were 2 pfcs having appts over there and they occupied the two tables. I had no choice but to stand for the whole day. And the worst thing was I could not do anything, but to read newspapers. It was such a waste of my time! After branch closed, I had to go back to Compass Point to do my work instead. WTH.

I'm super pissed.

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Angeline winks
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Life is for living, live it...

These quotes are extracted from an email which Celene had sent to me...

There are moments in life when you miss someone so much, you just want to pick them from your dreams and hug them for real.

When the door of happiness closes, another opens. But often, we look so long at the closed door, we don't see the one which has been opened to us.

Don't go for looks, they can deceive. Don't go for wealth, it can fade away.

Go for someone who makes you smile because a smile can make a dark day bright.

Dream what you want to dream, go where you want to go. Be who you want to be because you have only one life and one chance to do things you want to do.

The brightest future will always be based on a forgotten past. You can't go forward until you let go of your past failures and heartaches.

Live your life so that at the end, you're the ones who is smiling and everyone around you is crying. Don't count the years---count the memories.

Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take, but by the moments that take our breath away!

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Angeline winks
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AMKSS BBQ

I had my secondary school bbq tonight. It was a rare gathering which I would not want to miss, thus, no matter how tired I was, I rushed there after work. When I reached there, there were basically two groups - Class 2/4 and Class 2/5 plus 2 representatives from 2/1 (Weipeng & Yinqiu). Back in secondary school days, class 2/4 and class 2/5 were very close as we used to borrow textbooks from one another. Haha. Nevertheless, being antisocial, I only talked to my 2/5 friends.

There were quite a lot of friends whom I hadn't been seeing for quite some time. I like this kind of gathering as you get to meet up with friends whom you have not seen since graduation. Most of the girls have became prettier while the guys have better dress sense. I guess I look more or less the same. Maybe, I will scan my secondary school photos sometime next week and you guys can have a good laugh at those retro photos. Haha.

The Best Friends

Me & Pretty Joey.

Me & Sweet Yuxiu

Me & My gossip pal, Yinqiu

The guys. Most of them look the same except Chee Boon who has slimmed down quite a bit. As for Tianbao, he looks exactly as he was back in secondary one. He's still as skinny and fair as before.

Class 2/5
Front: Chen Lye, Spastic Bao, Hong Swee, Chingyun
Middle: Xiuli, Wai Cher, Joey, Yuxiu, Angie
Back: Peihui, Yong Jie, Chee Boon

Kudos to Yuxiu and some others for organising the bbq. It was a great bbq and I really enjoyed myself. It was the one of the few bbqs which I didn't have to cook myself at all. Haha. People like Weipeng and Xiuli were nice enough to help me bbq... Heehee. After working for one whole day, I was simply too lazy to cook myself. And I had a great talk with the guys as well. Tianbao even said something very profound which I think I would need some time to digest what he had said. I didn't know a guy like him can be so profound. haha.

Seeing my secondary school friends simply makes me miss secondary school life. We used to be so carefree and happy. It's amazing that we can still talk about the same old jokes when those jokes were at least 10 years old. Haha.

I really love them. But, I seriously wonder when will be our next outing?

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Angeline winks
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Friday, May 12, 2006

Kids are just so CUTE

I love the month of May. You know why? That's because there are a lot of public holidays this month! It's a good time to rest well. Heehee.

Anyway, I went for my semi-annual "bowling tournament" with the kids today. Sad to say, I'm still the loser for 2 consecutive games. I simply can't bowl for nuts! Haha. The kids were quite good in bowling and they kept on laughing at my wonderful bowling skills. My ball was rolling so slowly that they were saying for a normal person, the ball would take 10sec to reach the pins, but my ball would take at least 1min before it would reach the pins! WTH. Maybe, I should train hard in bowling before I go bowling with them again the next time. haha.

I really love being with the kids. The things they do, and the things they say never fail to amuse me. They are simply so naive and cute. Whenever I go out with them, I just feel so happy. Seeing them always makes me wanna to have my own kids.

Me & Wonderful Sis

Yen Lung & Me. He is my one of my favourite boys!

Me & Fatty Boy, Yen Ting

Yen Ting, Me & Sis

After our bowling tournament, we played video games for quite some time before we headed to Orchard for a sumptious dinner. We had our dinner at COCO restaurant. The steamboat was good and I ate until very full! All in all, it was a wonderful dinner.

After dinner, I was very tired and I went home after shopping for awhile. Besides, I think I should go home early to rest well for the war tommorrow...

GANBATTLE!

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Angeline winks
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Love Story

This is the love story of a girl. She used to have a wonderful boyfriend who loves her with all his heart. Yet, this silly girl does not treasure this boyfriend of hers. Maybe the boyfriend has given her far too many chances. On one fine day, the boyfriend decided to leave her. The girl was devastated as all along, she thought that the boyfriend would always stay by her side no matter what happens. Apparently, she was wrong. There's a limit to everything. Her boyfriend could no longer stand her. The girl has destroyed a perfect relationship with her own hands, and she has nobody to blame, but herself.

Maybe it's time for her to wake up now...

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Angeline winks
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Clubbing @ Devils Bar

You guys won't believe it. I went clubbing with my sis and bro (with his gf) last night! Initially, I intended to go ButterFactory with my uni friends (Keith, MJ & their friend) and Jo, but the girl there was damn bitchy, so we decided to head down to Devils Bar.

It was my first time clubbing with my silbings. I mean it. Though my brother goes clubbing quite often, I normally do not go clubbing with him. I think I only went to DBL O once with him. The good thing of clubbing with him is that he can drive me home. Haha. As for my sister, she is a good girl and she doesn't go clubbing. It's quite happening to go clubbing with them. haha. We opened 2 bottles of hard liquor and we finished both of them. Seriously, I didn't drink much, so I guess the guys must be the ones who had finished the drinks. haha. It's fine with me as long as I can just relax and dance. Simply enjoy without puking.

All in all, it was a great night out. Most importantly, I hope my sis had enjoyed herself and her husband would not kill me for bringing her out to cheong. Ops. Haha.

Me, my brother & Sis

Jo & Me

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Angeline winks
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Thursday, May 11, 2006

@ home

I had a wonderful off day today.

I went swimming in the morning, then went back home to rest. Initially, I intended to go back office in the afternoon, but I was just too nua to leave my house. So I decided that I should just rest at home since I would be working on Saturday and Sunday. haha. After my lunch, I took a constructive short nap. It feels really great to be able to take nap. =p

Sometimes, I feel that being @ home is not a bad idea after all. It gives you the peace and security which you cannot find anywhere. Home is the only place where you can just relax and do whatever you want.

I love being @ home.

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Anyway, here are some branch photos which we took on Boss birthday...

Strawberry Greg, Jo & Strawberry Jac

My table buddy, Pat & Me

My Boss.

See the blue tag in his hand? Whenever he is angry with us, he would pull the blue tag and throw at us. And we happened to make him angry (again) on his birthday. Sigh.

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Angeline winks
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Expectations

In life, we tend to have expectations. But, the thing is when your expectations (for somebody) are not met, you will feel disappointed. Maybe, we should all not have expectations for anything. No more expectations, no more disappointments, isn't it? Does it make us a happier person? Maybe. But, think about this from a positive view, when you have expectations, and when somebody or something actually meets or even exceeds your expectations, that's totally a wonderful surprise.

On the other hand, if you have expectations for something, be prepared to be disappointed. For me, I still cling on the slightest possibility that somebody will exceed the expectations and that will be a pleasant surprise.

As you can see, this is quite a meaningless post.

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Out of the blue, I casually asked my friend what is love to him. He said, love is about doing something for that special someone, and yet you do not ask anything back from him or her. That is love.

This kind of unconditional love is simply so romantic and sweet. Yet, how many of us can achieve this? Not many, I would say.

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Angeline winks
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My buddy is so NICE

My good buddy is so sweet! He called me last night to ask me about some blogging stuff and he played my favourite Kiss Goodbye to me! It was damn good. Super gan dong man. I nearly cried upon hearing him playing this very sad song. He's just freaking good man. He also played Jay's feng which is very nice too. I told him if he plays this to the girl that he likes, I'm quite sure the girl will be quite touched! It's like so ROMANTIC. haha.

Anyway, I am feeling quite healthy lately. I've just jogged home and I'll be going swimming tomorrow! What a healthy lifestyle, isn't it? And yes, I have finally cut down on drinking and I'm starting to exercise on a regular basis. The only unhealthy thing about me is I just can't forgo my unhealthy food like chicken wings. haha. Anyway, I really hope that I can maintain this kind of healthy lifestyle... =p

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Angeline winks
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Tuesday, May 09, 2006

I'll be OKAY

I'm feeling so tired. My mind is in a blank.

Anyway, I have heard quite a lot of shocking news lately. There are some happy news and there are some sad news as well. Whatever it is, I just hope that those parties involved will be happy no matter what.

Happiness is a choice. I've decided that I'm going to be happy Angie no matter how sucky my life is. Life is short and we'll never know what's going to happen next. Thus, given the choice, I guess I would want to be happy as I really want people to remember me as happy Angie, and not a depressed Angie. =p And I really wish that I can bring happiness to people around me. The reason why I don't like to tell people my problems, is because I don't like people to be affected by my negative emotions. If given a choice, I would prefer to be sad alone. That's me.

And most importantly, I must be happy as there are really a lot of people around me who really care for me.

So peeps, I'll be okay man.

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Happy Birthday to BOSS

It's boss birthday today! Hehe. Though he was in bad mood when he came to office, his mood changed after a while. Sometimes, I really think that my boss has mood swings man. He can be very happy at one moment and very fierce at the next moment. You never know what to expect from him. Haha. Maybe, all complicated and smart guys are like that...

We stayed in office till 9 plus before all of us could get ready to head for dinner. We wanted to try some grilled restaurant at Jalan Kayu, but it would be closed at 11pm so we had to change our plans. Initially, we wanted to go somewhere near so that it would be more convenient for da jie to go home, but our dear birthday BOY wanted to go Geylang. And so, we went to Geylang's No Signboard to eat.

Jo & Me taking photos in branch while waiting for boss to get ready

My Favourite BO - Ailing!

@ No Signboard

Group Photo

After the dinner, Jo, Greg & Me decided to go Boss place for some drinks since it's his birthday. And so, the four of us had white wine while talking about SCANDALS. We asked one another millions of weird questions. My conclusion was my boss took freaking long to answer each question that we posed to him! Haha. In the end, we went home around 3.30am. I was feeling real tired. But, we managed to take some photos before we left his place.

Me & Boss. I looked kinda tired, isn't it?

Us @ Boss place

Last of all, Happy Birthday BOSS!!!!

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Last time when I was still in university, my sports camp buddy, Edwin knew that I was feeling upset and he called me immediately to play my favourite Jay's song on the piano over the phone. At that moment, I was totally moved to tears.

Last week he called me to check up how am I doing. I just told him casually that I'm in love with Kiss Goodbye lately and would like him to play the song for me. And yes, he msg me last night, telling me that he had been practising the song and I could call him anytime if I want to hear the song. I'm so touched! Buddy, you are really my buddy man!

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Sunday, May 07, 2006

Disappear

Sometimes, I wish I could just disappear from this world... If not, losing my memory sounds like a good idea too.

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I read this from my friend's blog, it's exactly how I'm feeling right now.

"Lost. A nice show. My current life. My deep feeling. My blur future.

What do we work for everyday? At the end of the day, I spend only 2 hours awake at home every weekday. During weekends either I rest or slack at home, or I go out till I am so tired to work for next week. Day after day, week after week, I am still at the same point. Corporate annoucements come and go, recon come and go. I am still here.

Lost. Lose it and find it again. Found? I am lost again. Nothing is permanent. Change is for forever." - Mango

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Angeline winks
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Saturday, May 06, 2006

Horoscope for 6th May 2006

Looking forward into life is a great way to aim for positive changes, and living in the moment is always good -- but today it's looking back that will offer you the most reward, entertainment and insight. You may think that the past few months were fairly uneventful, but they weren't. Major shifts occurred that you'll only now be able to understand. Time has given you a different perspective on the people you brought into your life, and you will see them in a new light.

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Angeline winks
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I love Shopping

I've just gotten home from shopping and I'm feeling very tired.

And I mean I'm really very very tired. I feel like taking a good bath and go to bed immediately. I am really that tired. Actually, I have no idea why am I so tired even when I never party late for the past few nights. Maybe I'm just getting old. Haha.

Anyway, it was a great shopping trip today though I was quite sad that I didn't manage to buy my England jacket and heels. I love the England jacket a lot, but it's men's size! Hmm... I'll think about it, maybe I'll just buy the smallest size eventually. Haha. I really love that jacket a lot. As for my heels, I guess I would buy them soon with my 15% discount voucher. Haha. I simply love retail therapy.

Given that I'm feeling so tired, I guess I should sleep early tonight. =p

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Angeline winks
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It's Voting Day

It's Saturday and I don't have to work! It's really rare that I don't have to work on Saturday. I'm so happy! Haha. But, the funny thing is, I tend to wake up super early when I don't have to work. Why is it so?

Anyway, I met up with Shixing, Ally and Baolun last night. It's greating seeing them. As usual, Baolun is full of nonsense. Everything he says is just so RUBBISH. Haha. And the stupid Shixing is spastic enough to arrange to meet other friends after meeting us for ONLY one hour. After deducting the time he spent in the toilet, I guess he was with us for like 45mins? DUH.

After that, we were supposed to meet George at Galleria Hotel. However, it was impossible to take a cab in cityhall. So, the three of us decided to walk there. But, it was freaking far! We walked for twenty minutes and we were still nowhere close to our destination. In the end, we didn't meet up with George as he said he was leaving. Sigh. Eventually, we decided to go TCC to have some drinks.

I ordered my favourite Chocolate Milkshake and chicken wings! But, the chicken wings kinda SUX. What a disappointment. All in all, it was a great and healthy night with my university friends. Just hope that we could meet up soon. I find that it's getting harder and harder to meet up with my friends ever since I have moved on to the working adult stage, but I guess you just got to take the initiative to ask them out.

Last of all, I must remember to go voting later! Haha. Afterwhich, I guess I will go shopping. I love shopping! Heehee.

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One of my good friends commented that I've changed. Am I no longer that simple and innocent? Have I changed gradually to a scheming person as well? I hope not. It's very hurting when I heard that coming from my friend, especially my good friend.

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Angeline winks
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Thursday, May 04, 2006

Sports Camp Memories

Looking through millions of my photos in my pc, it really brings back a lot of wonderful memories. I guess one of my best memories of university life would definitely be those days as Sports Camp Programmers...

Me, my best gossip pal - YQ & my junior. YQ and I would always do funny things together during sports camp and most importantly, we are damn good at gossiping. Nothing can escape from our eyes and ears. With us around, you can never find peace. We are the CRAZY SISTERS.

Can you see our muscles? Heehee. Okay, I admit I have no muscles to show, but at least I hide my fat arms from the camera! Haha.

TOONS WORLD. We are from different batches of Toons Worlds.

The group photo of the PROGRAMMERS. Can you spot me in this photo?

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After seeing the ruggard side of programmers, let's move on to the Sports Ball!

It's a time in which all the girls would throw away all the singlets and shorts and really dress up as demure ladies.

The Programmers

The only thing I could remember about sports ball was drink, drink and more drink. I drank shots like nobody business and I was dead drunk. If I didn't remember wrongly, I was the first few to be dead drunk and the my friends had a hard time bringing me up to the hotel room. I concussed on the bed and would wake up occassionally just to vomit. It was to the extent that I nearly wanted to hug the toilet bowl to sleep. But, that was the last time in which I had gotten dead drunk.

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Angeline winks
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Being @ home

I'm feeling very tired lately. It's like I would have headache in the afternoon and I would feel that I'm dying even before the branch closes. What's wrong with me? Or am I just getting old? Or are these symptoms that I have partied too hard, and it's time for me to stop?

Anyway, my life has been quite boring lately. I've been going to work and that's it. After the long weekend of partying, I realize I don't feel like drinking or partying now. It's a good start to the path of quitting drinking, isn't it? And so, here I am, surfing internet and reading magazine at home. It feels great actually.

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My friend says I am confused. I am indeed very confused. How I wish there is somebody who can tell me what should I do. During these times, I hate being a typical librian. So indecisive. Argh.

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Angeline winks
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Wednesday, May 03, 2006

PMS

Yesterday was quite a bad day for me. I was feeling very depressed and lonely. But, I told no one. Maybe I was PMS-ing or maybe I was just very depressed, I don't know. I just felt very depressed. Though I was with wonderful company yesterday, I find it very hard to laugh it out loud. Sigh. I even cried on the bus when I was on my way home. Sigh. Why does it have to end this way? One of my good friend once told me this, "No man or woman is worth your tears, and the one who is will never make you cry". Is there such a man in this world?

Don't bother to care for me if you don't really care.

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Truly Madly Deeply

I'll be your dream
I'll be your wish
I'll be your fantasy
I'll be your hope I'll be your love
Be everything that you need
I'll love you more with every breath
Truly, madly, deeply do
I will be strong
I will be faithful 'cause
I'm counting on
A new beginning
A reason for living
A deeper meaning, yeah

I want to stand with you on a mountain
I want to bathe with you in the sea
I want to lay like this forever
Until the sky falls down on me
And when the stars are shining brightly in the velvet sky,
I'll make a wish send it to heaven
Then make you want to cry
The tears of joy for all the pleasure in the certainty
That we're surrounded by the comfort and protection of
The highest powers In lonely hours
The tears devour you

Oh can you see it baby?
You don't have to close your eyes
'Cause it's standing right before you
All that you need will surely come

I'll be your dream
I'll be your wish
I'll be your fantasy
I'll be your hope
I'll be your love
Be everything that you need
I'll love you more with every breath
Truly, madly, deeply do

I want to stand with you on a mountain
I want to bathe with you in the sea
I want to live like this forever
Until the sky falls down on me

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Angeline winks
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Tuesday, May 02, 2006

It's May Day

In the end, we didn't play badminton and we didn't manage to cook. Haha. All we did was MAHJONG. After 2 hrs of intensive mahjong, you won't believe that I only won $2. It's like so DUH. It's not even enough to cover my 2 way bus fare. And yes, you didn't see wrongly, I actually took public transport yesterday. *Applause* Haha. Anyway, it was a great mahjong session with Samuel, Limin and her bf, Zhiquan. Moreover, Zhiquan was nice enough to treat me dinner as well. Haha.

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Love Vs Bread.

If I couldn't have love, it's ok. I will choose to have bread then. I will be very focused this month. And I must get commission no matter what it takes so that I would have money to go Taiwan or HK in July!

Just put everything aside and just focus on my work! Yeah!

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Angeline winks
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Monday, May 01, 2006

Lost Love

You were the one who made me believe in true love again.

You were the one who made me feel loved all the time.

Yet you were also the one who made me cry alone at home now.

People told me that you are not worth my tears.

But, I think otherwise.

Maybe I am the one who doesn't deserve your love.

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Angeline winks
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It's Labour Day

Happy Birthday to our Mr Yong Wuyi who was born on the Labour Day!

Other than Saturday night which I had a healthy supper with Beng Chuan, I had been drinking every night since Thursday. Very disgusting right? I drank on Thursday to celebrate Ailing's birthday, then I drank on Friday to celebrate Hq's birthday and last of all, I drank on Sunday to celebrate Wuyi's birthday. It was indeed a crazy and wild weekend.

I feel so unhealthy. It's like my whole stomach is full of hard liquor. So disgusting. Seriously, if it wasn't their birthdays, I wouldn't have drank man.

I REALLY WANT TO QUIT DRINKING.

Okay. Let's be realistic. Maybe I'll start by cutting down on drinking then gradually, I will quit drinking. Actually, I'm not addicted to drinking. It's just that my friends around me just seem to enjoy drinking. Maybe I should just start jioing them to do healthy activities instead of drinking.

So friends, let's just cut down on drinking, okay?

Anyway, I'm having a bad headache now but the problem is I just can't get to sleep anymore. That's the problem with me. I just can't sleep well after drinking. Sian. Just hope that the headache will go away later in the afternoon.

Anyway, I'll be going Limin's place to cook later though I guess she would be the one doing the cooking while I would be the one eating. haha.

And I'm going to sleep early tonight to prepare myself for MAY!

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Angeline winks
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